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[SunMnStrz]

Here is my rant/vent:

I hate that my daughter thinks she can speak to me like I am not worthy of any respect at all, that I am nothing and that she believes she can control me by using my grandchildren as weapons and good deeds as ammunition. I hate that she has cut me out of my grandsons life and I hate that I have a brand new granddaughter that I am not allowed to meet. I hate that she brings her brothers into "our issues" I hate that she wants to turn everyone against me. I hate that all I do is cry over her and this situation!!

 

[forgetmenot]

Here is my rant/vent:

I hate that my daughter thinks she can speak to me like I am not worthy of any respect at all, that I am nothing and that she believes she can control me by using my grandchildren as weapons and good deeds as ammunition. I hate that she has cut me out of my grandsons life and I hate that I have a brand new granddaughter that I am not allowed to meet. I hate that she brings her brothers into "our issues" I hate that she wants to turn everyone against me. I hate that all I do is cry over her and this situation!!

sorry for your pain hun just know when they are older they will get to chose who they see

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Hate waiting for government to get their dam sht together and send out the dam readjustment on my property taxes been almost 4 mths now I hate waiting for things that were stated would be sent on a certain day but were not why say they will be sent then not send them It only creates more anxiety more fear inside me

 

[Ftbwgil]

Im tired of living my past in my head
Im tired of behaving based on the fears of the past
im tired of living in my head
Im tired of not trusting anyone

 

[GDPR]

I'm NOT a worthless piece of sh*t like I have been made to feel my entire life!

I DON'T deserve to be abused!

 

[H011yHawkJ311yBean]

Aye. And some days I am just tired.

Seriously wish our pets were considered family members so when their health starts going downhill they get coverage like the rest of us do. Because technically we're healthier with them then without them. So you'd think the gov't would try anything to keep humans healthy and keep em out of the hospital. lol

 

[MHealthJo]

I hate it that there are deceptive harmful people who good people need to watch out for, and that many people are not going to know how or will not watch out in time. I hate it, it frustrates me.

 

[SunMnStrz]

Saw a picture of my Grandson on Sunday and my Brand new Granddaughter today...talk about having my heart ripped out. I wish I could see them and spend time with them. It is not the relationship with my daughter that I am mourning at this point..I am totally dealing with that. It is not being able to see my Grandbabies that is messing with my head and I cannot deal with that very well. 0h well... a grandma's rant for the day!

 

[MHealthJo]

It is so sad. I'm sorry. I wish legally that grandparents had some level of rights to see grandchildren, as long as there is not some sort of danger or concern.

 

[Docjeff]

Congratulations! That (rant) expression of your frustrations is an excellent start. Before others will truly respect you, you must respect yourself. We teach others how to treat us. It sounds like you're ready to teach some new lessons. Good job!


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[Docjeff]

Stand firm and refuse to participate in your daughters attempts to manipulate you emotionally. Respond with respect and show her how to treat you by respecting yourself.


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[Docjeff]

Amazing things can happen in our lives once we decided we've had enough. Trust yourself first.


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[W00BY]

I am ANGREEEEE
About everything... the past the present the future...
I don't know where it has all came from...
I am angry at my sons illness and trying to keep a teenager who thinks he is not as ill as he is from doing things that will land him back in hospital
I am angry at clinicians who flounce about verbally when I am not stupid I know how ill he is
I am so angry at my family and their lack of sense of decency their lack of compassion their view of me being a pawn in games to be played and that whilst they all seem to want my attention they only want it in order to deliver hurt and irreparable pain
I am angry at the wider social circle of my family as a child and why still to this day when I meet them I see guilt and awkwardness because of their own guilt "the dirty secret syndrome" I like to think of it as
I am angry at having to leave my studies to look after my son
I am angry I am not allowed to replaced my dogs that died recently because of my sons illness and that no one understands how much they meant to me and the joy I got from tramping about the countryside with them
I am angry at everyone looking to me for what to do next when I just do not have the energy just now
I am angry at everything that has got in the way of my hopes, dreams and desires

I am angry at myself for being angry

 

[Ftbwgil]

I am so uncomfortable with emotions. It seems as a young child I decided the emotions where bad so I blocked them all or found coping techniques to avoid them. I try to go through emotions and it does not seem natural and given I have ways to avoid them .... I do. Someone told me not to try to understand what the emotion is but to welcome it... easier said then done. It makes sense though I will try to allow the emotion to manifest and once it does I will try to accept it. Maybe eventyally I will understand what the emotion is about

 

[Docjeff]

I wonder if your frustrations over emotions has more to do with feeling a lack of control in your life. Emotions can feel so random and unpredictable at times. This can intensify our sense of lacking control. Do you feel a lack of control in your life? Do you feel like life is living you more than you are living life ?


Doc Jeff

 

[MHealthJo]

Wooby you have plenty of reason to feel these emotions.... It is good that you expressed them. I am so sorry for all the stuff going on. Sorry you cannot have dogs with you at the moment. What a sad loss on top of everything else. Thinking of you.

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What is it with the past two weeks. Does anyone think that a lot of people (especially younger people) are becoming more thoughtless, unkind, flaky, lazy, selfish, rude? Entitled/ungrateful?

Yes or no?

Remembering why I have at times lost interest in trying to interact with many humans.

 

[forgetmenot]

i have not come across many rude people really maybe on highway yes but the young are very polite some are loud in restaurants but they are just being teens

 

[Ftbwgil]

wow that is a different angle of looking at it and yes it is a lack of control. I dont know why I have to have control all the time. Yes I feel fear and anxiety and sadness which might be brought on by not always being in control. Thats probably why I feel emotions especially on Monday mornings and every other morning. I also feel emotions as I am driving to do my work in sales and I do not have control.

Thank you for your insight I never looked at it that way and will definatly consider that next time I get these feelings.

I suspect I am not living life as much and am just trying to keep up or even excel........ to what? I am not fullfilled in a personal way all I do is work exercise I do not live fully

Thank you for your sharing

 

[MHealthJo]

Thanks Forgetmenot. You're right, teens are fundamentally different in a variety of ways. It's the flakiness that bothers me the most, and that seems to come out much more when setting up arrangements, social activities and things.... I have noticed this sometimes but I can remember to think of it somewhat as part of the teen brain, to a degree.

And if I only think of that side of them, I'm forgetting the things that can be nice or special about teens - they can be so funny and interesting, they can be kind and polite, and in their own world that doesn't make sense to the rest of us normal people ( ), they can be very kind to each other and help each other and support each other. They just seem to have their own set of rules and conventions sometimes too.... haha....

 

[Docjeff]

I appreciate your response. You present very articulate and insightful. We do not live according to reality, we live according to our perception of reality. We all develop and maintain our own internal maps of reality. Sometimes there are parts of our maps we have not updated for years. The need for control and its attachment to emotions may be a part of that map from years ago that needs to be updated. New roads and pathways have been created over the years and often we are trying to negotiate terrain based on an old map unaware that there exists a newer and more efficient road. Consider your internal map. The solution to your frustration may be as simple as recognizing the need to update a portion of your map.
I wish you the best of luck!


Doc Jeff

 

[forgetmenot]

Yes they do and they feed off of each other I think sometimes in a group situation all they think about is impressing their friends and forget sometimes that there are others around but in general i find they are not rude