I've been battling with bulimia for a few months now.. I think. Sometimes I eat perfectly normal, well if it's normal I don't know, the portions are way smaller than I used to eat and everything is fine. Other times I could have like 1 veggie wrap and be so full after I ate it that I have to throw up or it hurts. Other times I just don't eat at all and just give my self little bits whenever the hunger pains become too much. And sometimes I'm so hungry and nothing call fill the void. I thought a few weeks ago I had it all under control. I had faught the urge to purge for a full week and a half, but then it came back with a vengance and I'm purging a few times a week again. I'm sure that I totally fit the bulimic profile, but actually convincing myself that I need help and that I don't have this under control seems the hardest part. I was really over weight a few years ago and then healthily lost a lot of weight on my doc's recc, I went to clinics and whatnot. The part I don't understand is that I was comfortable with my weight and had no problems, sure I wasn't attractive or anything but I didn't think about my weight. It was causing health problems tho so I had to lose it. No that I'm in a better weight range (and considered really attractive for the first time ever) I've started becoming obessed with my weight it seems, wanting to lose more. Man I'm just so totally messed up I don't even know anymore.. does anyone have anything that's working for them, anything to try to fix my broken brain?