kelsischanging
Member
I have a problem (obviously ) I am a recovering cutter and a recovering cocaine addict...I don't know what to do...I am struggling sooooo bad I don't know what to do....I feel like falling back on one of my old behaviors but it's like what's worse cutting or using...I don't want to relapse w/ coke but I'm not sure if it's like a relapse with cutting...it there such a thing...i know this post makes me sound crazy cause I know I what I should be doing to get through my situations w/ out using or cutting but I'm having a hard time caring enough about myself enough to want to do the right thing...thoughts are racing through my mind...my heart rate is up and breathing is hard...I get this feeling all the time and I know that cutting and drugs(not coke cause that's a stimulate)... will relieve all these feelings...it will calm me down...I don't know what's going on w/ me but time is running out for me...