Cat Dancer
MVP
I wish you the best with all of this. Sometimes it is good to have stuff like this to do to take our minds off the other things.
I'm glad you have some help too.
I'm glad you have some help too.
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just a wee update... Party was great for the most part.. i managed not to panic.. but kept near enuff to the door..lol.. big crowd here and by all accounts they had great time.
i was kept too busy to panic.. lol.
was wrecked afterwards.. but it was ok.
thanks for all the support ppl. *s*
i was kept too busy to panic.. lol.
was wrecked afterwards.. but it was ok.
thanks for all the support ppl. *s*
ThatLady
Member
Whee, NSA! It's over and you done it! Congratulations, hon. Sounds like everything went wonderfully well.
today i had to go to town for something... even the thooughts of going were off putting.. i delayed going as long as was possible.. (therefore shorter time to be in there).. got there..felt sick as a ....anxiety.. knew it was this..so i just said to myself "be awaer of it.. but don't let it stop u".. so i kept going..
only had two places to go to anyway... no big deal....(aaagghhh). in one place the area is small and downstairs.. then i discovered a mistake had been made.... not what i needed to hear.. belive me!! so i just said okay i will wait outside till it's sorted..
so i come up and go outside... and the town is really busy.. the longer i was outside the worse i was feeling.. in the end(after 20mins) i went back down and was told not sorted yet.. i left and said i will come back tomoro... my legs were turning to jelly and i knew i had to get home... mind over matter stopped working... the bus ride home was sickening even got off before my stop and walked the rest of the way..
not sure now i want to go back in tomoro... it was horrible... that's the best way i can describe it.
i feel it's a combination of agora and claustro at work here... and it's doing my head in...
home is def the place to be at the min for me.
only had two places to go to anyway... no big deal....(aaagghhh). in one place the area is small and downstairs.. then i discovered a mistake had been made.... not what i needed to hear.. belive me!! so i just said okay i will wait outside till it's sorted..
so i come up and go outside... and the town is really busy.. the longer i was outside the worse i was feeling.. in the end(after 20mins) i went back down and was told not sorted yet.. i left and said i will come back tomoro... my legs were turning to jelly and i knew i had to get home... mind over matter stopped working... the bus ride home was sickening even got off before my stop and walked the rest of the way..
not sure now i want to go back in tomoro... it was horrible... that's the best way i can describe it.
i feel it's a combination of agora and claustro at work here... and it's doing my head in...
home is def the place to be at the min for me.
Hey nsa,
I think you had a really great attitude going there!
As for going again tomorrow, I really hope you will. They'll probably have everything figured out by then, and if you don't go, how will you know how it would have went? Mind over matter may have stopped working after a while, but you seemed to have it right on for quite some time! This is the kind of thing that takes practice... Don't beat yourself up for not getting it perfectly right all the time and don't give up! Whether it's claustrophobia or agoraphobia, facing your fears as you seem to do is the way to get past this! Just remember to keep it at an acceptable level, so you don't get discouraged. Good luck!
I think you had a really great attitude going there!
That's really awsome. I think you really couldn't have had a better way of thinking about it. Even though it may have been a bit too much to stay there with all the problems they were having... just the fact that you went,? and stayed for 20 minutes despites feeling really anxious is really something to be proud of!notsureanymore said:
As for going again tomorrow, I really hope you will. They'll probably have everything figured out by then, and if you don't go, how will you know how it would have went? Mind over matter may have stopped working after a while, but you seemed to have it right on for quite some time! This is the kind of thing that takes practice... Don't beat yourself up for not getting it perfectly right all the time and don't give up! Whether it's claustrophobia or agoraphobia, facing your fears as you seem to do is the way to get past this! Just remember to keep it at an acceptable level, so you don't get discouraged. Good luck!
Thanks JA.. your reply is as always very encouraging.. and i do appreciate you and everyone else taking the time..
I didn't go back next day, i rang instead and got some one to pick it up... i just couldn't face the bus or town or all those ppl again not to mention that basement.
I had to go out yesterday,, had psych apt.. i won't even go into detail... the bus ride.. packed buses.. ect.. by the time i got there i had to "recover" before i could go in for the apt.. and then had to face it on way back again.. I even took xanax before leaving the house.. it did help.. a bit.. but i do not want to be taking it everytime i need to go out. (So i don't, i hate taking meds for anything.)
I realise tho that i'm not doing myself any favors.. by staying in.. but it's so much easier..
i'm tired of trying at the mn.. I feel so drained by "everything" that's going on .
i don't think i'm giving up.. maybe i am.. not sure..
i'm just so tired.... of trying and getting no where..
thanks again everyone..
I didn't go back next day, i rang instead and got some one to pick it up... i just couldn't face the bus or town or all those ppl again not to mention that basement.
I had to go out yesterday,, had psych apt.. i won't even go into detail... the bus ride.. packed buses.. ect.. by the time i got there i had to "recover" before i could go in for the apt.. and then had to face it on way back again.. I even took xanax before leaving the house.. it did help.. a bit.. but i do not want to be taking it everytime i need to go out. (So i don't, i hate taking meds for anything.)
I realise tho that i'm not doing myself any favors.. by staying in.. but it's so much easier..
i'm tired of trying at the mn.. I feel so drained by "everything" that's going on .
i don't think i'm giving up.. maybe i am.. not sure..
i'm just so tired.... of trying and getting no where..
thanks again everyone..
i feel a bit like a stranger here at the min,
even tho i'm on new meds, i still don't want to go out, had to yesterday, daughter met me and we had to wait yet again for the script to be sorted out.. just leaving the house had my stomach in knots. i'm on rivitril, effexor xl, and lithuim, and yet i still don't feel comfortable leaving the house. off the xanax which was a help, and not sure which of the above is supposed to be replacing it. i feel so fed up with everything.
even my house feels alien to me now, find it hard to know what to do around here.
my room is the same tho,, T.G. and it's where i want to stay. and would if i could.
time to go...
thanks for the space.
nsa
even tho i'm on new meds, i still don't want to go out, had to yesterday, daughter met me and we had to wait yet again for the script to be sorted out.. just leaving the house had my stomach in knots. i'm on rivitril, effexor xl, and lithuim, and yet i still don't feel comfortable leaving the house. off the xanax which was a help, and not sure which of the above is supposed to be replacing it. i feel so fed up with everything.
even my house feels alien to me now, find it hard to know what to do around here.
my room is the same tho,, T.G. and it's where i want to stay. and would if i could.
time to go...
thanks for the space.
nsa
David Baxter PhD
Late Founder
NSA, the Rivotril (aka Klonipin, generic name clonazepam) replaces the Xanax. If memory serves, it has a longer half-life, which means it stays in your bloodstream longer to help manage the anxiety.
See http://www.rxlist.com/cgi/generic/clonaz_ids.htm for more information.
See http://www.rxlist.com/cgi/generic/clonaz_ids.htm for more information.
wee update.. i can get into a car now, haven't tried the buses yet, might have to today. and i can go outside usually i have someone with me, (i'm just not left alone anyway no matter where i go). it does turn my stomach still and sometimes i have to stop in case i throw up. shops are a prob still some i will go into other i won't. really and truly prefer not to have to go out at all. I hate the thoughts of it. and really avoid small places ect. maybe after i start therapy again, things will improve.
nsa
nsa
David Baxter PhD
Late Founder
Therapy should help you with that issue, NSA. It's usually a combination of cognitive therapy and small steps combined with anxiety management strategies.
thank you Toeless: i think the meds i'm on are finally helping with the anxiety, that is i'm finding it slightly easier to do some things that i wouldn't have done before the hospitalization(sp). I did get on a bus yesterday evening, mind u it was empty.. lol so that helped big time.
thanks David I really hope it does work.. and that one day i can say i have these symptoms under full control again or indeed maybe that they've gone??
thank ye both and TL too for all the encouragement ye give me.
nsa
thanks David I really hope it does work.. and that one day i can say i have these symptoms under full control again or indeed maybe that they've gone??
thank ye both and TL too for all the encouragement ye give me.
nsa
anothre update: meds are def helping cause i went into town today aft apt, to get script filled, and even went into a shop or two, managed to stay in chemist basement while script was being filled, first time in long time, even the chemist remarked on it. tho itook a bit of time and i was getting a bit anxious by the time i got the meds. once up and out in the air again i found i was a bit panicky but brought it under control fairly quickly. And i got the bus home again... as usual couldn't wait to get off. but progress i think anyway.
David Baxter PhD
Late Founder
I would say that is most definitely progress!
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