Okay, so I am 24 now and finishing up my senior year in college. When I was in 8th grade, I suddenly started complaining about having a memory problem. I have had that problem ever since, but have developed coping mechanisms so I can fake like I know what is going on.
I have been diagnosed with ADD, aspergers and OCD. Starting in 8th grade, I made a list of everything I wanted in my room and then put it there. I also started writing things down extensively in order to sort them out in my head so I could make plans, usually I would write down what I was going to do the next day in great detail. From this point on, I would write down any thoughts that came into my mind. I never really looked at my notes again although the process helped me sort things out in my head.
Then for the last two years, I developed a different system where I would just sit around my house at college and wait for people to contact me so that I could use them as a list, kind of let them plan for me and I would just go along with it.
As far as school goes, I am a math/physics major and what I usually do is go through the books and write out formula sheets that I can use on the homework to do the problems but when it comes to the tests I fail because I don't remember anything.
Also, when it comes to social situations I have a bad memory as well. At any given time I have no idea who my friends are, what is going on, what I believe in or anything. I am just kind of floating along looking at whatever is in my immediate vicinity.
Sometimes this can result in me acting very differently around different people because I am very susceptable to their ideas.
As someone with aspergers, I would expect that I would be very into video games or something. Although I would love to be, the truth is I usually can't do much. I buy the games but don't ever get around to playing them. I have a hard time building routines, in fact they don't build at all. Usually during the day the only thing I can accomplish is waking up, taking a shower, eating breakfast, going to class (but not knowing what is going on) coming home, if people happen to call me to hang out I let them come over.
I didn't even realize I had a problem until recently when I begun to realize that other people didn't need to write things down all the time, etc.
So my psychiatrist has me not write things down during the day, unfortunately now I feel like I am in a constant den of confusion, I don't really know what's going on, I can't make plans, I have no clear picture in my head of what the day's plans are, who my friends are, what's going on.
I usually use clues of what is in front of me in order to figure out what I should be doing. For example, my physics homework is open in front of me right now so I figure I should be working on that.
Even though I don't know what's going on, my mind does seem to pick up on memory-related issues. For example, even while completely clueless, I pick up on what is said in conversations. And I seem to be learning. But... it isn't compiling. It is there and sometimes when it all comes together it works. But not usually.
Basically I live in the moment and don't know what is going on.
I have been diagnosed with ADD, aspergers and OCD. Starting in 8th grade, I made a list of everything I wanted in my room and then put it there. I also started writing things down extensively in order to sort them out in my head so I could make plans, usually I would write down what I was going to do the next day in great detail. From this point on, I would write down any thoughts that came into my mind. I never really looked at my notes again although the process helped me sort things out in my head.
Then for the last two years, I developed a different system where I would just sit around my house at college and wait for people to contact me so that I could use them as a list, kind of let them plan for me and I would just go along with it.
As far as school goes, I am a math/physics major and what I usually do is go through the books and write out formula sheets that I can use on the homework to do the problems but when it comes to the tests I fail because I don't remember anything.
Also, when it comes to social situations I have a bad memory as well. At any given time I have no idea who my friends are, what is going on, what I believe in or anything. I am just kind of floating along looking at whatever is in my immediate vicinity.
Sometimes this can result in me acting very differently around different people because I am very susceptable to their ideas.
As someone with aspergers, I would expect that I would be very into video games or something. Although I would love to be, the truth is I usually can't do much. I buy the games but don't ever get around to playing them. I have a hard time building routines, in fact they don't build at all. Usually during the day the only thing I can accomplish is waking up, taking a shower, eating breakfast, going to class (but not knowing what is going on) coming home, if people happen to call me to hang out I let them come over.
I didn't even realize I had a problem until recently when I begun to realize that other people didn't need to write things down all the time, etc.
So my psychiatrist has me not write things down during the day, unfortunately now I feel like I am in a constant den of confusion, I don't really know what's going on, I can't make plans, I have no clear picture in my head of what the day's plans are, who my friends are, what's going on.
I usually use clues of what is in front of me in order to figure out what I should be doing. For example, my physics homework is open in front of me right now so I figure I should be working on that.
Even though I don't know what's going on, my mind does seem to pick up on memory-related issues. For example, even while completely clueless, I pick up on what is said in conversations. And I seem to be learning. But... it isn't compiling. It is there and sometimes when it all comes together it works. But not usually.
Basically I live in the moment and don't know what is going on.
