stargazer
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I wish I knew how to create those quote box thingies.
No, the Burden Project is my big project, this was just a little project within the bigger project, that of recording some tunes at a studio. I was talking about it earlier, and having lost the backing. I tried to wing it without sufficient funds but finally gave up & feel all right with that. We'll pick it up again later. I can close out for $20 (yes, USD) and get a DVD of all the tracks, take it home, use it elsewhere, in the future, whenever. So it's all good.
I'm in the college town known as Berkeley, esteemed home of the second cultural revolution, circa 1969. (j/k)
About routine, I think I'm rediscovering now how positive a healthy routine can be. The last couple years, I've sort of just done things whenever, unless I've had to do otherwise, which is frequently. In that mode, routines interfere with freedom. But I think that in the long run, there's a kind of a comfort in a positive routine, knowing what to do and when. (And of course, being flexible enough to deviate from it--but at least having something to deviate *from* -- otherwise, life seems to become chaotic for me.)
Yes, I experience mania, though lately not so severe. At one time I had a full-blown manic episode (they called it a Bipolar One Manic Episode) -- lately it's been more like hypomania and somewhat more controlled. During actual mania, I might have delusions of grandeur and also paranoia, in addition to being all hyped and scattered and "charged." Normally, I have to fight off delusional thinking quite a bit, often believing things that aren't really real, and sometimes convincingly so.
I don't get depressed too often. Recently I've been depressed--fighting it for about a month now. I think it's just the other pole of the bipolarity, though. I'm not taking any medication right now. I can't afford a psychiatrist, and unfortunately I lost my health insurance during the first manic episode (two years ago.) But I'm going through the local channels of the system, and it's encouraging, just time-consuming. I live in a small town, there are only two psychiatrists who work for the system, and so they're backlogged.
I also wrote the first draft of my musical during the Bipolar One Manic Episode, began 2/17/04 and finished 5/23/04 at 4:37am on a municipal transit bus in San Francisco while doing an all-nighter. Crazy stuff.
No, the Burden Project is my big project, this was just a little project within the bigger project, that of recording some tunes at a studio. I was talking about it earlier, and having lost the backing. I tried to wing it without sufficient funds but finally gave up & feel all right with that. We'll pick it up again later. I can close out for $20 (yes, USD) and get a DVD of all the tracks, take it home, use it elsewhere, in the future, whenever. So it's all good.
I'm in the college town known as Berkeley, esteemed home of the second cultural revolution, circa 1969. (j/k)
About routine, I think I'm rediscovering now how positive a healthy routine can be. The last couple years, I've sort of just done things whenever, unless I've had to do otherwise, which is frequently. In that mode, routines interfere with freedom. But I think that in the long run, there's a kind of a comfort in a positive routine, knowing what to do and when. (And of course, being flexible enough to deviate from it--but at least having something to deviate *from* -- otherwise, life seems to become chaotic for me.)
Yes, I experience mania, though lately not so severe. At one time I had a full-blown manic episode (they called it a Bipolar One Manic Episode) -- lately it's been more like hypomania and somewhat more controlled. During actual mania, I might have delusions of grandeur and also paranoia, in addition to being all hyped and scattered and "charged." Normally, I have to fight off delusional thinking quite a bit, often believing things that aren't really real, and sometimes convincingly so.
I don't get depressed too often. Recently I've been depressed--fighting it for about a month now. I think it's just the other pole of the bipolarity, though. I'm not taking any medication right now. I can't afford a psychiatrist, and unfortunately I lost my health insurance during the first manic episode (two years ago.) But I'm going through the local channels of the system, and it's encouraging, just time-consuming. I live in a small town, there are only two psychiatrists who work for the system, and so they're backlogged.
I also wrote the first draft of my musical during the Bipolar One Manic Episode, began 2/17/04 and finished 5/23/04 at 4:37am on a municipal transit bus in San Francisco while doing an all-nighter. Crazy stuff.
