I have not writen much here, and for that I am sorry. I fully intended to use this forum to help myself become a bit more aware of ME. Now I am facing a new challange.
I met a man a few weeks ago. We hit it off very good. It almost seemed like fate was drawing us together. The one fly in the ointment is that he is a crack user.
He hid it at first, even told me that others may tell me he uses, but that I should not listen to them. Later, he told me that he uses, and even used it infront of me, so I "could see what it does and know when he has had it."
He has used it in my home now 3 times. Each time was ment to show me what it does. The last time it was so he "could see me reacting to his use". The point of that exersoze was to be that he would see how I feel as he used. (I have not and will not use it.)
Tonight, Sunday July 22, 2007 I droped him off at work and have not heard from him since 3 this afternoon. I fear he is using again. I do not know where he is and I have been to the places I know he hangs out.
I don't know what to do. I was not expectiing this to happen, but I have fallen in love. How can I deal with this? And more important, how can I help him?
I met a man a few weeks ago. We hit it off very good. It almost seemed like fate was drawing us together. The one fly in the ointment is that he is a crack user.
He hid it at first, even told me that others may tell me he uses, but that I should not listen to them. Later, he told me that he uses, and even used it infront of me, so I "could see what it does and know when he has had it."
He has used it in my home now 3 times. Each time was ment to show me what it does. The last time it was so he "could see me reacting to his use". The point of that exersoze was to be that he would see how I feel as he used. (I have not and will not use it.)
Tonight, Sunday July 22, 2007 I droped him off at work and have not heard from him since 3 this afternoon. I fear he is using again. I do not know where he is and I have been to the places I know he hangs out.
I don't know what to do. I was not expectiing this to happen, but I have fallen in love. How can I deal with this? And more important, how can I help him?