Distorted Thinking

[gooblax]

The last couple of days I've been falling for some of the distorted thinking - in particular, the "only option" and "no choice" thoughts.

I'm trying to convince myself that I do have a choice and that I want to make the right decision here.

 

[Jazzey]

I'm sorry you're having those thoughts Gooblax. As someone said to me not too long ago, they are just thoughts. As scary as they are - we don't have to act on them. And, they're definitely not your only option.

Have you told anyone around you about them? Your family? Your T?

Addendum - suicide is never an option Gooblax. It's giving way to the distorted thinking. I'm adding here Gooblax - If you are seriously considering suicide, please reach out to someone. Get your family to take you to the emergency room, call a suicide hotline. But don't deal with these thoughts on your own. Are you hearing me on this?

Hotline for Australia: Suicide Resources - Psychlinks Psychology Self-Help & Mental Health Support Forum

 

[Daniel E.]

Such suicidal thoughts can be a sign that you need more treatment, e.g. more frequent therapy visits, a med change, and maybe also lifestyle changes like socializing or exercising more.

If you are currently seeing a therapist or psychiatrist, you may want to call them tomorrow morning to let them know. In any case, you may want to make an appointment ASAP if you don't have one soon.

 

[gooblax]

I don't want to tell my therapist because it will just be stupid if I'm not going to act on the thoughts (which I'm pretty sure I'm not...).

 

[Jazzey]

I don't want to tell my therapist because it will just be stupid if I'm not going to act on the thoughts (which I'm pretty sure I'm not).

You have to tell him. There's nothing stupid about it. I've had suicidal ideation myself recently - my T was the first person I told. You have to tell him - as Daniel said, this will be a big red flag that your treatment has to change and/or your lifestyle.

How can he treat you to the best of his ability if you keep something of this magnitude from him?

 

[Daniel E.]

Yes, suicidal thoughts can be very annoying and debilitating and, if not properly managed, can lead to a worsening of depression, etc. It's a symptom that needs to be reported in order to get proper treatment. I guess I would liken it to you having a fever and not telling your doctor your temperature has gone up.

 

[NicNak]

:hithere: Gooblax. I have had those thoughts before too. They are very scary, but it does not mean you are going to act on them.

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http://www.lifeline.org.au/find_help/24_hour_counselling_service

Please call for help Gooblax, if you feel it is getting too much. There are always options, please believe that.

I will keep searching for more resources for you Gooblax :hug:

Please tell your therapist. I always tell my doctors. They can help us

 

[gooblax]

I don't even know that my thoughts about it are genuine, though.
It shouldn't be as bad after the 'chosen time' when I won't have done it and will have proven yet again that my thoughts about it are just fake.

 

[Jazzey]

Gooblax, the mere fact that you have chosen a time for suicide is distressing to me - I'm really concerned. Please, reach out to someone around you or call a hotline.

It's irrelevant whether you think these thoughts are genuine or not - you are not equipped to deal with them on your own. None of us are.

This is not something you don't want to do to your family and friends.... Grief after Suicide - Psychlinks Psychology Self-Help & Mental Health Support Forum

 

[NicNak]

I don't even know that my thoughts about it are genuine, though.
It shouldn't be as bad after the 'chosen time' when I won't have done it and will have proven yet again that my thoughts about it are just fake.

Thinking of suicidal thoughts is still serious, cause it is showing how much you are hurting inside Gooblax :hug:

It is very important you tell your therapist how you are feeling today.

I always tell my doctors and I am always glad I did. This way they know the pain I was feeling inside and are able to help me through it.

When you tell your Therapist, they are not going to think you are just "trying to get attention" or "faking it".

I cannot stress to you, how important it is, that you tell your therapist all your feelings. That is the best way for them to help you.

They only way they can assess us, is to know all of how we feel, from the good to the bad.

When do you see your Therapist again Gooblax? Are you currently on any medication?

Please consider calling a hotline, please. They will be kind and understanding, I know for sure.

 

[Daniel E.]

I don't even know that my thoughts about it are genuine, though.

Obviously, I would hope they aren't genuine. But that doesn't matter as far as reporting it to your therapist, or in the level of distress they may be causing you, or in that they are affecting your mental health in the short and long term.

 

[Mari]

The last couple of days I've been falling for some of the distorted thinking

That might be something to discuss with your doctor/therapist. Why the last couple of days? :support: Mari

 

[gooblax]

Thanks Jazzey, NN, Daniel and Mari.
I don't want anyone to be worried, because I'll be okay.
I'll tell my therapist when I next see him, if it's still relevant.

 

[NicNak]

Gooblax. You are always welcome :hug:

Even if it is not "revelant" at the time, please tell him. It is revelant to how you feel at certian times. It is important he knows. Seriously sweetie, please tell him ok?

:support:

 

[ladylore]

What happened Gooblax to start this thinking in the first place. If it's something concrete we may be able to help you come up with options for the problem.

Just a reminder to that no matter how healthy anyone is everyone experiences that type of thought pattern at one time or another. The fact that you caught it and recognized it for what it is is fantastic.

:friends: :goodjob:

 

[white page]

Hi Gooblax ,

Originally Posted by gooblax View Post
I don't even know that my thoughts about it are genuine,

I relate to what you say there . I now call these kind of thoughts as parasitic thoughts and they can be very distressing , please do tell your T about them , it is his/ her role to help you understand where they are coming from and why . There may be a need for a med adjustment , or a coping technique if these thoughts are in reaction to a recent event or circumstance which provokes a deep distress , at times there is a triggering dynamic of which we are not consiously aware , which provokes these thoughts , things seem to be going reasonably well , and for no apparent reason we have these intrusive thoughts , so please Gooblax do tell your T.

take care wp

 

[gooblax]

Thankyou everyone.

gooblax added 23 Minutes and 46 Seconds later...

I feel so guilty about this thread now... I'm sorry.

 

[white page]

Thankyou everyone.

gooblax added 23 Minutes and 46 Seconds later...

I feel so guilty about this thread now... I'm sorry.

Gooblax :hug:
this is a good thread , and very useful for most people , we all have these kind of thoughts , and it is very helpful reading all the advice given , so thank you for sharing your feelings , there is nothing to feel guilty about , on the contrary , you can feel proud because you have expressed how you felt , and you reached out for help , this is an achievement . wp

 

[NicNak]

Aww Gooblax. Don't feel guilty. :support: I am glad you reached out to us when you were feeling this way.

As I said it is important you tell people including your therapist how you feel.

I am glad to see you came back online :hug: Hope you are feeling better now :friends:

 

[Into The Light]

gooblax, please don't feel guilty, there is nothing to feel guilty about. i am so glad you posted about what's going on with you because it takes some of the pressure off for you. talking about these thoughts is healthy. not talking about them is bad because they just grow and grow in your head, and that can be very dangerous. by talking here you have taken care of yourself and are keeping yourself safe and that is a good thing!

even if the thoughts seem to be gone by the time you see your therapist, i encourage you to tell him about them anyway. it will give him a clearer picture of how you are doing emotionally. suicidal thinking is a symptom of depression and he may reevaluate your diagnosis.

you done good, girl! :goodjob: