I think I need to end a 6+ year relationship, but I don't feel emotionally/psychologically able. I'll provide any and all requested information, in return for your advice and/or opinion.
I take anti-depressant for ongoing, long term depression. My GP has also diagnosed me with General Anxiety Disorder, and has prescribed Xanax here and there, which I have taken in half doses, relatively rarely.
There is no physical or emotional abuse occurring in the relationship, however, years of built up anger and resentment, coupled with (in my opinion) some poor behaviour, and shabby treatment, have taken their toll on my perception of him and of the relationship. Working it out is not an option.
When I imagine my life post-breakup, I am overwhelmed with feelings of sadness, loneliness, and complete lack of will to carry on with life.
As someone who has lived with depression and anxiety for at least 25 years, the thought that my imaginings might materialize if I break off the relationship, is horrifying ... and I think that it is the fear of how I imagine my life post-breakup that stops me from moving forward, and leaving the sinking ship.
I think that I have abandonment issues, due mostly to some heaving abandonment and severe neglect from birth to late adolescence.
Thank you all for taking the time to read my message ... looking forward to your insights!
I take anti-depressant for ongoing, long term depression. My GP has also diagnosed me with General Anxiety Disorder, and has prescribed Xanax here and there, which I have taken in half doses, relatively rarely.
There is no physical or emotional abuse occurring in the relationship, however, years of built up anger and resentment, coupled with (in my opinion) some poor behaviour, and shabby treatment, have taken their toll on my perception of him and of the relationship. Working it out is not an option.
When I imagine my life post-breakup, I am overwhelmed with feelings of sadness, loneliness, and complete lack of will to carry on with life.
As someone who has lived with depression and anxiety for at least 25 years, the thought that my imaginings might materialize if I break off the relationship, is horrifying ... and I think that it is the fear of how I imagine my life post-breakup that stops me from moving forward, and leaving the sinking ship.
I think that I have abandonment issues, due mostly to some heaving abandonment and severe neglect from birth to late adolescence.
Thank you all for taking the time to read my message ... looking forward to your insights!