Is it common for people to become afraid when they failed to commit it? My life has been getting better and I a lot of interesting stuff has happen since. I have became afraid of mouthwash, sharp stuff and straight people. I'm bi sexual and I thought that with all the gay and bi hate the world has. I thought it would be better if I just died. My best friend Kate didn't think so and she saved my life. Since then I have gotten two gay friends. I found out that one of my other best friends is bi too. One of my gay friends is my best friend as well. I have three best friends. I have another friend that's straight but she wasn't treated very well and was bullied offend. I had two boy friends as well. Life is going well and I would hate to die from drinking mouthwash and being stabbed by a sharp object. I would hate to be beaten to death by straight people as well. I voted for the first time yesterday. Is my fear of dieing caused by me trying to commit suicide or is it something else?