Frustrated by panic attack

[David Baxter PhD]

Domo: Murray mentioned a little earlier that she is hoping to get pregnant. For that reason, she probably doesn't want to start medication now as long as she is able to cope without it.

 

[Domo]

Domo: Murray mentioned a little earlier that she is hoping to get pregnant. For that reason, she probably doesn't want to start medication now as long as she is able to cope without it.

Yeah i know, i am not trying to push meds onto her or anything just don't think she has to needlessly suffer.

Also i noticed TSOW say

Some medications can be safely used in pregnancy, and a competent medical specialist can help with chossing those options.

 

[Murray]

Yeah Domo, I pretty much feel like a waste of space all the time too (sorry that you feel that way too, it sucks).

I know that I shouldn't worry that my therapist will judge me or be disappointed in me, cause in theory they don't judge, but they are only human after all. I almost think that in some ways I worry more about my therapist judging me because he knows so much about me. I think I would feel even worse if he rejected me than some person who doesn't know a lot of my "crap".

 

[Domo]

They are trained though Murray, they also do not have that emotional connection that you have for example, with your family.

I dare say it would be unethical for them to pass judgement like that. If my therapist ever said to me that she was really dissapointed, that would be so damaging to me. I'd be outta there.

 

[forgetmenot]

I hope you can make the right choices for you and not for anyone else Murray It is you that has to cope talk to you therapist let know exactly what is on your mind and your GP as well to see what safe options there are if you do get pregnant What ever choice you make it has to sit right with you okay take care.

 

[Murray]

Thanks so much everyone. In my next session I think I will at least mention that my panic attacks are getting worse again and see what we can come up with together.
I'm just so mad at myself because I felt like I was getting past all of this crap. It almost feels like I am moving backwards.

 

[Domo]

It's just a momentary set back. We are human, it happens.

:support:

 

[Murray]

Yup, you're right Domo, we are all human. I like the way you put that btw, " We are human, it happens".
That's good.

 

[forgetmenot]

If you are dealing more with your past issues in therapy then it is expected these attacks will worsen thus medications are there to help or other coping skills put in place if not meds It means you are moving forward not backwards Murray take care

 

[SoSo]

I also had a T once who did not believe in medication even though I told her I needed it at the time. She believed in talking everything out, which is fine and it did help me talking it out but it was not enough. I went to my family doctor, GP, and told her the situation. She got me on meds that helped me. I did not discuss the fact that I was on the meds with the T because I felt it was my business and while she took care of the 'talking' aspects I had to take care of my own healing on my terms, medication, until I could deal on my own without the meds. I hope all goes well for you. In the end, our GP's can and will give us what we need that is safe and until we can cope without the meds. Yes, we are human, anxiety, panic attacks and all and we deal the best we can with what we are given at the time but eventually, hopefully sooner than later, we heal, we have less of the 'stuff' and that is what I hope for you.
:support: SoSo

 

[Murray]

You're right Violet, I suppose I am not moving backwards. It just feels like I should be past all of this by now, and I get frustrated with myself. Lately, my panic attacks had been less frequent and less severe, so I thought that they were sort of behind me. It does make sense though that since I'm finally starting to deal with things from my past that I would have some difficulties.

Thank you SoSo for your response as well (btw love your picture, what a cutie)

Tomorrow I see my therapist and I will try to bring this up with him. I don't think I will ask for meds, but maybe there are more calming techniques I can try. If I wasn't trying to get pregnant I probably would be requesting some, or at least talking about it with him, but I am trying not to take many meds right now. (I am even trying to cut down on caffeine which sucks!)

I just want to say "thank you" again to all of you. I really appreciate how generous you all are with your wisdom and compassion. :thankyou2:

 

[forgetmenot]

Cutting back on your caffeine is a good thing too Murray as it will help i think decrease the anxiety a bit. I hope all goes well with your therapist tomorrow let him/her know about the attacks okay so you can get the help needed to stay well. take care.

 

[Domo]

Cutting down on coffee?

:lol:

All the best with your appointment tomorrow. I hope your therapist can give you some anti-med help.

 

[Murray]

I'll cut back on the caffeine, but I refuse to give up my chocolate though! :lol:
There is only so much a girl can sacrifice, right?

 

[Domo]

Damn right!

Mmm now i feel like chocolate coated coffee beans :lol:

 

[Murray]

You are bad :lol:
Coffee Chocolate Chip Ice Cream sound good to me right now or Coffee Heath Bar Crunch Ice Cream, mmmmm.