gooblax
MVP
I can't tell. I generally don't feel anything towards or against them. Some walkthroughs and logistics prep, but as a "for reference when I decide" basis rather than stemming from an actual decision.
It feels like too big of a step to try and take personal responsibility for it when I can't even narrow down what "it" is. Whether I'm just being overly dramatic about what is actually, legitimately nothing. Because other than this, there's nothing pressing or urgent. No real problem to avoid, nothing other than what I thought I was already ok with; I can't even be sure it's related to that. I can't verify their legitimacy. Is it just that this is the only way I have of bringing an issue to my attention, even though on examination, there is no issue? It doesn't make sense. I'm not feeling sad or depressed, I still get **** done, and rarely do I have any more than a baseline level of anxiety unless it's situational which are obviously isolated cases and need to be dealt with as such, even if they spur the thoughts on independently.
I don't expect this to make sense. I obviously can't explain it adequately even to myself and since it doesn't seem to fit anyone's expectations of cause and effect, I can't even hope to get my point out by gesturing about like an ape.
Perhaps just simple thought redirection will do it as long as I stick with that.
It feels like too big of a step to try and take personal responsibility for it when I can't even narrow down what "it" is. Whether I'm just being overly dramatic about what is actually, legitimately nothing. Because other than this, there's nothing pressing or urgent. No real problem to avoid, nothing other than what I thought I was already ok with; I can't even be sure it's related to that. I can't verify their legitimacy. Is it just that this is the only way I have of bringing an issue to my attention, even though on examination, there is no issue? It doesn't make sense. I'm not feeling sad or depressed, I still get **** done, and rarely do I have any more than a baseline level of anxiety unless it's situational which are obviously isolated cases and need to be dealt with as such, even if they spur the thoughts on independently.
I don't expect this to make sense. I obviously can't explain it adequately even to myself and since it doesn't seem to fit anyone's expectations of cause and effect, I can't even hope to get my point out by gesturing about like an ape.
Perhaps just simple thought redirection will do it as long as I stick with that.