I'm 34 years old, married to a great man and we have a six year old son together. I have come to the conclusion that I am not psychologically fit to raise a child. My child and I never bonded. He bonded to my mom and she to him. I have thought of my son more like a brother or someone else's kid living under my roof.
I am a child emotionally. I've been trying to raise myself, trying to grow up, to resolve my issues and change my feelings and behavior patterns and be a good person. How on Earth am I supposed to help someone else when I have failed at helping myself?! My child lies and misbehaves in school and I am not emotionally able to handle his behaviors because it adds to my incredibly heavy personal burden.
I have fought my feelings for six years. I've tried to pretend that I love my child but he's not stupid; He knows. He wants to hurt me because he knows. But you see, I'm already hurting too much. I can't take anymore.
I quit my job impulsively this morning because I'm too upset and irrational at the moment to hold a job. Now I feel even worse because I was our primary provider so my husband could go back to school. I told him we need to get a divorce so that I can divorce my parental responsibility. But the problem is, I love my husband and he's all I have. I know that getting a divorce is the right thing to do but I just can't seem to bring myself to do it.
I am a child emotionally. I've been trying to raise myself, trying to grow up, to resolve my issues and change my feelings and behavior patterns and be a good person. How on Earth am I supposed to help someone else when I have failed at helping myself?! My child lies and misbehaves in school and I am not emotionally able to handle his behaviors because it adds to my incredibly heavy personal burden.
I have fought my feelings for six years. I've tried to pretend that I love my child but he's not stupid; He knows. He wants to hurt me because he knows. But you see, I'm already hurting too much. I can't take anymore.
I quit my job impulsively this morning because I'm too upset and irrational at the moment to hold a job. Now I feel even worse because I was our primary provider so my husband could go back to school. I told him we need to get a divorce so that I can divorce my parental responsibility. But the problem is, I love my husband and he's all I have. I know that getting a divorce is the right thing to do but I just can't seem to bring myself to do it.