this will probably seem silly... it feels a bit silly but it also feels ver real.
I'm feeling very rattled.. shaky even.. and it's now hours ago that my family and I went to the cinema. But i can't seem to get away from this feeling of wanting to cry. Going to the cinema was nerve racking but i went anyway.. part of me didn't want to go as i knew there would be lots of ppl there. anyway.. inside.. film started, really really loud, i'd forgotten how loud it is.. very aware of so many ppl.. all looking for seats ect. film started and i eventually managed to concentrate on it.. even had a good laugh at parts of it. then it ended, i decided to wait till most of the ppl had left before making amove to leave, while waiting daughter comes down behind me, she went to say something.. i jumped.. i got such a fright.. I nearly cried there and then. I managed to feign being okay and we got outside.. on the way out tho there were still crowds of ppl milling about and some touched off me, (as ppl do when they pass).
Now i'm like really rattled inside and want to cry. my head is all over the place. this is why i avoid groups of ppl and places where lots of ppl are. but just for once i thought it may not happen, but it did. and i still can feel those ppl who passed me.. the sensation hasn't worn off .
hopefully this will be gone by morning.
I'm feeling very rattled.. shaky even.. and it's now hours ago that my family and I went to the cinema. But i can't seem to get away from this feeling of wanting to cry. Going to the cinema was nerve racking but i went anyway.. part of me didn't want to go as i knew there would be lots of ppl there. anyway.. inside.. film started, really really loud, i'd forgotten how loud it is.. very aware of so many ppl.. all looking for seats ect. film started and i eventually managed to concentrate on it.. even had a good laugh at parts of it. then it ended, i decided to wait till most of the ppl had left before making amove to leave, while waiting daughter comes down behind me, she went to say something.. i jumped.. i got such a fright.. I nearly cried there and then. I managed to feign being okay and we got outside.. on the way out tho there were still crowds of ppl milling about and some touched off me, (as ppl do when they pass).
Now i'm like really rattled inside and want to cry. my head is all over the place. this is why i avoid groups of ppl and places where lots of ppl are. but just for once i thought it may not happen, but it did. and i still can feel those ppl who passed me.. the sensation hasn't worn off .
hopefully this will be gone by morning.