kelsischanging
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I tried, I tried really really hard. I did everything right. I saw my therapist, I tried to see my psychiatrist (but she had to re-schedule twice, I see her Monday), I talked to my best friend but in the end I ended up on an SI spree. Since I have had gastric bypass surgery and can no longer use eating as a coping mechanism, I am finding it harder than ever to resist the urge to SI.
My therapist says that I need to find more positive ways to cope (obviously) but I just can't seem to find ones that work. I have been trying to find more positive ones since I was 14(when I started using negative coping mechanisms) and that was 10 years ago. For some reason I just crave, need, only respond to the ones that alter my mood quickly (drinking, drugs, eating, cutting, those are the big ones). I refuse to give up though. I didn't go through with gastric bypass surgery and changing my whole life only to fall on other unhealthy coping mechanisms. I didn't loose 140 pounds just to continue to scar up my body.
I'm looking for any idea you have, have heard of, can think of...I don't care if it sounds like the most bizarre thing ever, I will try anything that will keep me from drinking, over using my pain meds, SIing, ect. I want to be healthy!
My therapist says that I need to find more positive ways to cope (obviously) but I just can't seem to find ones that work. I have been trying to find more positive ones since I was 14(when I started using negative coping mechanisms) and that was 10 years ago. For some reason I just crave, need, only respond to the ones that alter my mood quickly (drinking, drugs, eating, cutting, those are the big ones). I refuse to give up though. I didn't go through with gastric bypass surgery and changing my whole life only to fall on other unhealthy coping mechanisms. I didn't loose 140 pounds just to continue to scar up my body.
I'm looking for any idea you have, have heard of, can think of...I don't care if it sounds like the most bizarre thing ever, I will try anything that will keep me from drinking, over using my pain meds, SIing, ect. I want to be healthy!