Introducing myself

[MarieUK]

Hi, my name's Marie and I've come on this forum in Canada because I want to remain anonymous (am from the UK) as I'm very guarded about my past and don't want anyone to recognize me or know what's happened (everyone I know thinks I'm happy, confident, with the perfect life. If only they knew...).

I can't afford private therapy and daren't go to my doctor as he will just prescribe me pills to numb my feelings. So I'm resorting to the internet to hopefully help me. Fingers crossed anyway - I'll try anything at this stage!

Marie

 

[Always Changing]

Hi Marie,
Welcome to the forum.
Did you have a look here? on tips for helping members stay anon.. http://forum.psychlinks.ca/suggesti...the-forum-remaining-anonymous.html#post194389

and here the forum rules etc.. Psychlinks Psychology Self-Help & Mental Health Support Forum

 

[MarieUK]

Thanks, I'll have a look at that.

 

[amastie]

Hi Marie,

:welcome2:

amastie

 

[David Baxter PhD]

I can't afford private therapy

My understanding is that there are services available at no cost or through the NHS system.

and daren't go to my doctor as he will just prescribe me pills to numb my feelings.

How do you know that's true?

 

[AmZ]

Welcome

 

[MarieUK]

Because I've been to him before with postnatal depression. He just prescribed me anti-depressants and then wrote notes on medical file, and then shortly afterwards I applied for life insurance and was denied it because of the depression in my medical notes. It's now been 2 years since the PND and I can reapply, so I don't want anything in my medical records indicating depression again, or I'll get denied it again.

 

[H011yHawkJ311yBean]

Hello MarieUK! Welcome to the forum!

Well, after you get approved for the insurance, then can you see the doctor about them?

Anti-depressants, as far as I know, don't numb your pain... I thought they corrected a chemical imbalance already present in a person's brain. Numbing the pain, that's usually what people do when they find something other than proper medication; like get their own access to other drugs or drink alcohol or some combination of the two...

 

[Andy]

Welcome to Psychlinks MarieUK! :2thumbs:

 

[MarieUK]

Yes I suppose I could, I guess I'm just thinking of excuses to not do it, because I don't think I can talk about it out loud (hence why I came on this forum instead of calling someone).

The anti-depressants stopped me from feeling depressed and made me forget about my problems, but when I'd recovered the problems resurfaced and I don't want to be on meds forever.

 

[Jazzey]

Yes I suppose I could, I guess I'm just thinking of excuses to not do it, because I don't think I can talk about it out loud (hence why I came on this forum instead of calling someone).

That's one of the nice things about therapy: you don't have to talk about certain things until you're ready. In that sense, you bring into the room what you want to / when you want to, all the while getting some good support.

 

[David Baxter PhD]

The anti-depressants stopped me from feeling depressed and made me forget about my problems, but when I'd recovered the problems resurfaced and I don't want to be on meds forever.

Medication can't do all the work. But medication can help you to feel less defeated and overwhelmed, and this will help you engage in therapy to address the issues in your life that are triggering the depression.

 

[JudyBelmont]

Marie - Just because something did not work before, does not mean that it will always be that way. Thinking "permanent" and "globally" rather than "temporary" and "specifically" leads to depression. There are many doctors and therapists, and clinics and programs that are for people with limited means. If you focus on having hope, and realize there is, then you can make try other doctors - you are not stuck if you do not want to be. Wishing you hope.

 

[Daniel E.]

Because I've been to him before with postnatal depression. He just prescribed me anti-depressants and then wrote notes on medical file, and then shortly afterwards I applied for life insurance and was denied it because of the depression in my medical notes. It's now been 2 years since the PND and I can reapply, so I don't want anything in my medical records indicating depression again, or I'll get denied it again.

Have you considered that your own mental health is the most important thing for your family and not money?