Hello people who are reading this. Well as you can tell im knew and i was looking for something like this because i feel that i need advice about my current state. Im 16 years old and since i was 12 i havent been me. Before i have been able to pull myself out of a state when i've felt bad and theyve only lasted for a few weeks but i've been in one for two months and i havent been getting better. I thought that maybe if i described how i feel people could advise me on whether i should seek some kind of medical help.
When i feel like this i usually just sit up in my room and listen to music that just makes me feel worse. I just feel generally unhappy about myself and the way i look all the time but sometimes it can feel worse. And maybe if something in the day has really pissed me off or upset me it makes things worse still. I always constantly feel tired because some nights i can hardly sleep because i just dont have the power to sleep even though im knackered. I go through periods of trying not to eat because i feel fat and it never works and i just end up feeling terrible and shattered. When this first started when i was 12 i turned to cigarettes because i found other people smoked to make themselves feel less stressed so i started to see if that would help but it didnt and now i've turned to drugs and alcohol. Although i dont drink anymore because it just makes me ill which is why i smoke cannabis. I thought it would fill up this emptiness i felt but i only feel happy when i've had a hit and im on a high. Also i've gone through periods of cutting for three years and i have scars all over my arms and legs. No one from my family has ever said anything but i dont think i could say anything to them about it because i feel that i cant tell them anything. Whenever im with any of my friends and i feel like this i just dont talk to them or i pretend im hyper and im always hyper infront of my parents even when i feel bad. Sometimes with my friends i take things out on them which isnt good. I just wondered whether any of this could be me being depressed or just a typical teenager but somewhere i just dont feel right or whole. I just ... dont feel like me.
Please give me advice. Thank you xxx
When i feel like this i usually just sit up in my room and listen to music that just makes me feel worse. I just feel generally unhappy about myself and the way i look all the time but sometimes it can feel worse. And maybe if something in the day has really pissed me off or upset me it makes things worse still. I always constantly feel tired because some nights i can hardly sleep because i just dont have the power to sleep even though im knackered. I go through periods of trying not to eat because i feel fat and it never works and i just end up feeling terrible and shattered. When this first started when i was 12 i turned to cigarettes because i found other people smoked to make themselves feel less stressed so i started to see if that would help but it didnt and now i've turned to drugs and alcohol. Although i dont drink anymore because it just makes me ill which is why i smoke cannabis. I thought it would fill up this emptiness i felt but i only feel happy when i've had a hit and im on a high. Also i've gone through periods of cutting for three years and i have scars all over my arms and legs. No one from my family has ever said anything but i dont think i could say anything to them about it because i feel that i cant tell them anything. Whenever im with any of my friends and i feel like this i just dont talk to them or i pretend im hyper and im always hyper infront of my parents even when i feel bad. Sometimes with my friends i take things out on them which isnt good. I just wondered whether any of this could be me being depressed or just a typical teenager but somewhere i just dont feel right or whole. I just ... dont feel like me.
Please give me advice. Thank you xxx
