I also continue to wonder why this particular diagnosis worries you as much as it does.
I mean - is that all you think you are?
You do know you're more than that don't you .....
So, what are you that's more than that?
i can relate to this feeling, janet, and as hard as it is to believe, you will not dissolve and disapear when you start to manage the OCD and it stops controlling your life so much. you are still you. i know it may feel like you don't know who you are anymore, but you're there. right now you're just overwhelmed by so much that you're kind of buried underneath all the hard stuff in your life. as the hard stuff gets lifted a little there will be more room for you to breathe, and the real janet will start to emerge again. she's there, really she is. :hug:But what scares me is what if I am really nothing and there's nothing inside me anymore? What if it's all gone?
It's too hard. I can't figure out what is reality anymore.
Conjure up an image of the Positive You.
Shut your eyes, get quiet, and conjure up a very positive image of yourself. Watch that Positive You get up in the morning, get dressed. What are her interactions with her family like? What does she do for the rest of the day? Does she go to the same job you have? Her interactions with other people? What kinds of things does she do over the course of the day? How does she feel? At the end of the day, what does she do?
Maybe you are focusing more on the problem than on the solution? That certainly is/was the case with me and is a feature of ruminative or negative thinking.