kelsischanging
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A couple of nights, I tried to get a few things done around the house before I started drinking wine and my hands started shaking pretty badly. If I'm scheduled late until 6:15pm by the time I get home, it's bad...The one night it was so bad I could not function until I had a glass and half of wine. I tried to start with an after work rehab program but they said they wouldn't admit me w/ out at least a week of inpatient detox and I'm beginning to believe they are right. I have anti anxity meds...would they help?? I JUST like today got an amazing new job and I can't just disappear for a week to detox inpatient...I have an appointment with a new place on Wednesday.
I'm hoping, when I start to shake that my anti-anxiety meds will calm that down. I really didn't realize it was this bad....I'm sitting here crying over how bad it is but then reaching for my wine glass to make myself feel better....I'm hoping the meds will make me better...to start my new job I HAVE to get more sleep than I am now....I'm drinking 5 hour energies every day which I know are messing me up since I have lab work done since I had gastric bypass....whatever.....I'lll just drink alcohol....then sleep a little.....then chug caffiene...then the cycle starts over....I feel like I'm killing myself more than when I was 436 pounds...
I'm hoping, when I start to shake that my anti-anxiety meds will calm that down. I really didn't realize it was this bad....I'm sitting here crying over how bad it is but then reaching for my wine glass to make myself feel better....I'm hoping the meds will make me better...to start my new job I HAVE to get more sleep than I am now....I'm drinking 5 hour energies every day which I know are messing me up since I have lab work done since I had gastric bypass....whatever.....I'lll just drink alcohol....then sleep a little.....then chug caffiene...then the cycle starts over....I feel like I'm killing myself more than when I was 436 pounds...