My T has never come out and said that I have an ED...It was another T that I saw one time that came to that conclusion...
Back in 05 to the beginning of 06, I starved myself...I had severe anxiety to the point I would take one bite and feel stuffed...I gained {{Edit: certain # of lbs}} on Zyprexa and when the weight started coming off, I actually liked the anxiety b/c of it making me not want to eat...
After the anxiety subsided to a degree, I would allow myself 2 or 3 bites of one kind of food and maybe 3 bites of something else on my plate...But I never allowed myself to feel full...I started exercising like crazy and I was drinking up to 3 gallons of water a day...I started brusing easily and got extremely thin...
Back in Feb.06 K and I were at a restuarant and she started badgering me about eating and I calmly said to her, "I don't want to talk about it" and she said "well I do" and proceeded on a rant about me not eating...Other people in the restuarant were gawking at us and I wanted to hide under the table...
The next a.m. I went on my first binge and my stomach muscles were so tight that it automatically made me vomit...From than until now I go through this severe bingeing as many as 3-7 days in a row and than I behave for 3 days and the longest was 2 weeks...
2 weeks ago tomorrow I had been on a serious binge and it made me sicker than a dog...The next day (Monday) I started really watching what i ate and I was breaking out into cold sweats (I've had problems with hypoglycemia in the past) so I knew i had my sugar out of whack...Also that last binge lasted almost everyday for 2 weeks so I gained some weight and on Sunday K made a video of me working Tanner and I saw myself and thought my Gosh I'm fat!...I cried...My T told me I was still very thin but to me I looked like a Good Year Blimp...
I haven't binged since and I've lost {{Edit: certain # of lbs}} in 12 days...I am throwing food away, especially things I binge on and if I eat a small dish of ice cream, I do an extra 5 mile run that day...
But I am eating more than I did for those 6 months, I just won't eat high calorie foods, the past 2 days if I've taken in a 1000 calories thats alot...
But I'm not hungry...Yesterday and today I got real winded on my run but other than that i feel fine...K hasn't started on my case yet so I guess i look ok, except I want to lose more..........RIMH
Back in 05 to the beginning of 06, I starved myself...I had severe anxiety to the point I would take one bite and feel stuffed...I gained {{Edit: certain # of lbs}} on Zyprexa and when the weight started coming off, I actually liked the anxiety b/c of it making me not want to eat...
After the anxiety subsided to a degree, I would allow myself 2 or 3 bites of one kind of food and maybe 3 bites of something else on my plate...But I never allowed myself to feel full...I started exercising like crazy and I was drinking up to 3 gallons of water a day...I started brusing easily and got extremely thin...
Back in Feb.06 K and I were at a restuarant and she started badgering me about eating and I calmly said to her, "I don't want to talk about it" and she said "well I do" and proceeded on a rant about me not eating...Other people in the restuarant were gawking at us and I wanted to hide under the table...
The next a.m. I went on my first binge and my stomach muscles were so tight that it automatically made me vomit...From than until now I go through this severe bingeing as many as 3-7 days in a row and than I behave for 3 days and the longest was 2 weeks...
2 weeks ago tomorrow I had been on a serious binge and it made me sicker than a dog...The next day (Monday) I started really watching what i ate and I was breaking out into cold sweats (I've had problems with hypoglycemia in the past) so I knew i had my sugar out of whack...Also that last binge lasted almost everyday for 2 weeks so I gained some weight and on Sunday K made a video of me working Tanner and I saw myself and thought my Gosh I'm fat!...I cried...My T told me I was still very thin but to me I looked like a Good Year Blimp...
I haven't binged since and I've lost {{Edit: certain # of lbs}} in 12 days...I am throwing food away, especially things I binge on and if I eat a small dish of ice cream, I do an extra 5 mile run that day...
But I am eating more than I did for those 6 months, I just won't eat high calorie foods, the past 2 days if I've taken in a 1000 calories thats alot...
But I'm not hungry...Yesterday and today I got real winded on my run but other than that i feel fine...K hasn't started on my case yet so I guess i look ok, except I want to lose more..........RIMH
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