warped_and_twisted
Member
Hi, my names Lily and i'm 14 years old. I've only just joined this website.
I've been self harming for only a year. Doesn't seem very long when I read other posts. I just feel very alone. Don't get me wrong, I have friends but I feel like they can't help me. They wouldn't understand. I can't tell my family either.
I self harm on days when I feel paticuarly depressed, alone and helpless. I made a lame attempt to kill myself through overdose which didn't result in anything. I don't know why, but it feels easier opening up to strangers then it would if i was to tell someone I know. Sometimes I feel that no-one understands. Everyones always so happy and although I don't begrudge them their happiness, I feel jealous. Jealous that they don't know what goes on inside my head. I wish that there was someone to tell me it's going to be ok because right now all i have is a voice inside my head telling me it's going to be anything but ok. People would think I was cutting myself for attention if I told them, which is mainly why I don't. I act like I don't care what they think but the truth is I probably care too much.
Self harming makes me feel like i'm punishing myself, which I deserve. I do it mainly after an awful day when I just feel so isolated, and so different.
I hope that i'll be able to relate to other people on here.
Lily.
I've been self harming for only a year. Doesn't seem very long when I read other posts. I just feel very alone. Don't get me wrong, I have friends but I feel like they can't help me. They wouldn't understand. I can't tell my family either.
I self harm on days when I feel paticuarly depressed, alone and helpless. I made a lame attempt to kill myself through overdose which didn't result in anything. I don't know why, but it feels easier opening up to strangers then it would if i was to tell someone I know. Sometimes I feel that no-one understands. Everyones always so happy and although I don't begrudge them their happiness, I feel jealous. Jealous that they don't know what goes on inside my head. I wish that there was someone to tell me it's going to be ok because right now all i have is a voice inside my head telling me it's going to be anything but ok. People would think I was cutting myself for attention if I told them, which is mainly why I don't. I act like I don't care what they think but the truth is I probably care too much.
Self harming makes me feel like i'm punishing myself, which I deserve. I do it mainly after an awful day when I just feel so isolated, and so different.
I hope that i'll be able to relate to other people on here.
Lily.