braveheart
Member
the times I've been on here, I've struggled with labels.....
this has something to do with transference (long story I won't go into right now, but it does explain my ?erratic behaviour...)
anyway
both my psychotherapist and GP 'refuse' to diagnose me, to give me a label.
David, you pointed out the wisdom of this in your last reply to me...
I do see the point.....especially given what I went through as a child, being 'labelled' by the bullies as--- Spas, Beanshoot, Shrimp, Braceface, etc.
by the teachers----shy and withdrawn and lacking in confidence
by my father----as a useless object, a silly twisted female, hopeless, helpless, etc...
by my mother----"there must be something wrong with you...." or "there's nothing wrong with you.."....no wonder I was confused....
HOWEVER
I've had several out of control breakdowns recently, all of which I've emerged from into breakthroughs, but at times my behaviour has been 'extreme' and frightening to me.....
its all part of my recovery.
BUT
the meds I'm on - Efexor - is no longer helping contain my more difficult unregulated feelings....
and I HAD to see my GP in the week, it was SO SO SO bad....
and she's referring me to an NHS psychiatrist.....to evaluate my medication.
Psychiatrists diagnose.....
(Unless my GP and therapist explicitly tell her--I've asked for a woman, as I find men very triggering....but there's no guarantee, apparantly...--not to tell me.....I'd be annoyed if so...)
Which means I'll get a label....
If only it could be as simple as Depression....
BUT
it could very well include a cocktail of any number of these---
Borderline, Avoidant, Schizotypal, Dependent PD
DESNOS
PTSD (Complex PTSD isn't in the DSM)
Agoraphobia
GAD
Social Anxiety Disorder/Social Phobia
........
Wanna add anything else?
Autistic tendencies maybe???????
I WANT TO KNOW WHO I AM.......
What does anyone else think of the wisdom or not of diagnostic labels?
And, how much can they change as a person goes through their recovery?
?????
K.
this has something to do with transference (long story I won't go into right now, but it does explain my ?erratic behaviour...)
anyway
both my psychotherapist and GP 'refuse' to diagnose me, to give me a label.
David, you pointed out the wisdom of this in your last reply to me...
I do see the point.....especially given what I went through as a child, being 'labelled' by the bullies as--- Spas, Beanshoot, Shrimp, Braceface, etc.
by the teachers----shy and withdrawn and lacking in confidence
by my father----as a useless object, a silly twisted female, hopeless, helpless, etc...
by my mother----"there must be something wrong with you...." or "there's nothing wrong with you.."....no wonder I was confused....
HOWEVER
I've had several out of control breakdowns recently, all of which I've emerged from into breakthroughs, but at times my behaviour has been 'extreme' and frightening to me.....
its all part of my recovery.
BUT
the meds I'm on - Efexor - is no longer helping contain my more difficult unregulated feelings....
and I HAD to see my GP in the week, it was SO SO SO bad....
and she's referring me to an NHS psychiatrist.....to evaluate my medication.
Psychiatrists diagnose.....
(Unless my GP and therapist explicitly tell her--I've asked for a woman, as I find men very triggering....but there's no guarantee, apparantly...--not to tell me.....I'd be annoyed if so...)
Which means I'll get a label....
If only it could be as simple as Depression....
BUT
it could very well include a cocktail of any number of these---
Borderline, Avoidant, Schizotypal, Dependent PD
DESNOS
PTSD (Complex PTSD isn't in the DSM)
Agoraphobia
GAD
Social Anxiety Disorder/Social Phobia
........
Wanna add anything else?
Autistic tendencies maybe???????
I WANT TO KNOW WHO I AM.......
What does anyone else think of the wisdom or not of diagnostic labels?
And, how much can they change as a person goes through their recovery?
?????
K.