braveheart
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I was talking today in therapy about how it breaks my heart that I perpetuate my own outcast-ness now, continuing how I was marginalised and alienated in the past, now.
Suddenly, as I was on the verge of tears I switched out of it somehow - this wasn't a completely conscious process. And it was like I was heavily sedated or drugged - I couldn't feel anything. [Apart from frustration] I was there, but not there. Nothing seemed important and it was kind of like being on a cloud, I was quietly giggly and 'silly' and I couldn't get myself out of it. My therapist 'reached in' to me which shifted things a bit, but I'm still sort of in that state. It's like I can't think or feel. I feel slight anxiety, and irritable, but apart from that I can't think straight.
I guess I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced similar, and also for me to have a safe space here to try and get my head around it all.
Suddenly, as I was on the verge of tears I switched out of it somehow - this wasn't a completely conscious process. And it was like I was heavily sedated or drugged - I couldn't feel anything. [Apart from frustration] I was there, but not there. Nothing seemed important and it was kind of like being on a cloud, I was quietly giggly and 'silly' and I couldn't get myself out of it. My therapist 'reached in' to me which shifted things a bit, but I'm still sort of in that state. It's like I can't think or feel. I feel slight anxiety, and irritable, but apart from that I can't think straight.
I guess I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced similar, and also for me to have a safe space here to try and get my head around it all.