I'm trying to understand So here is my story..
I can remember when I was young I had tics and I was told many times that I was nervous.. also remember that I could not do things like others as I was easily scared and was often laughted at.
I could not even walk down the isle at church and would pass out at the dentist.
At 17 I had to quit school as my grades were horrible due to learning difficulty. To make a story short I made a career in police work which was not good for me but permitted me to provide my family. So those fears followed me all my life and learned to wear a mask. During those years I went through therapies but it always came back. I was put on 1.5 mg of clonazepam in 88 and helped for awhile so in 2000 I decided to come off and went too fast and paid the price. I've been off a few months but I wonder how long it will take the receptors to return to normal.
After I got really depressed comparing myself to others which probably was coming from my childhood. I went for advice: Now At 60, they tell me that I have tourette, cyclothemia and possible ADHD.
I was on effexor and the Doc. added epival for moods swings and after a while Straterra.
I tried ritalin and for the first time I could read a whole newspaper article but the tics go so bad.
I would like to travel, go out in groups etc but I cant as the anxiety still controls me. I just can't relax planning a trip and a fear sets in taking all the fun out. I just cant handle stress.
So I have two choices:
Accept it and stay back
or
Fight again.
I can remember when I was young I had tics and I was told many times that I was nervous.. also remember that I could not do things like others as I was easily scared and was often laughted at.
I could not even walk down the isle at church and would pass out at the dentist.
At 17 I had to quit school as my grades were horrible due to learning difficulty. To make a story short I made a career in police work which was not good for me but permitted me to provide my family. So those fears followed me all my life and learned to wear a mask. During those years I went through therapies but it always came back. I was put on 1.5 mg of clonazepam in 88 and helped for awhile so in 2000 I decided to come off and went too fast and paid the price. I've been off a few months but I wonder how long it will take the receptors to return to normal.
After I got really depressed comparing myself to others which probably was coming from my childhood. I went for advice: Now At 60, they tell me that I have tourette, cyclothemia and possible ADHD.
I was on effexor and the Doc. added epival for moods swings and after a while Straterra.
I tried ritalin and for the first time I could read a whole newspaper article but the tics go so bad.
I would like to travel, go out in groups etc but I cant as the anxiety still controls me. I just can't relax planning a trip and a fear sets in taking all the fun out. I just cant handle stress.
So I have two choices:
Accept it and stay back
or
Fight again.