And on thursday we have to pay a bill for the lights and cable and well no money so that is really upsetting me.
Utilities in the state are required to offer a payment plan, and also there is in effect a 30 day disconnect delay for customer if their physician, public health official or social service official certifies that a household member's health would be adversely affected from the loss of service. Certificates may be renewed 3 times per year.
http://www.needhelppayingbills.com/html/utility_and_heating_disconnect.html
Sorry your website design job fell through. That is discouraging but is there something else you can do to generate some income in the short term? Can you create some flyers or some sort of free-advertising to perhaps line up another job? Can you work at a warehouse or something?
Depression is very circular - when you're depressed you dont' want to do anything and find it hard to do anything. But, without doing something, the depression likely won't get better.
One thing that came to mind when I read your post above is isolation. I don't know what your skills or background are but with depression, doing website work from home can be very isolating which doesn't help things. Is it possible to find some sort of job where you're around others - this will help you gain some income, meet some people, prevent isolation, provide networking opportunities, etc. In your spare time, you can work on getting some website work and find a balance in there.
I know for me I can't work alone - it feeds my depression and makes it a hundred times worse, so I'm always wary of isolation with others as well.
Sorry if I'm overstepping, but just thought I'd mention it in case it can help.
Thank you turtle for your advice. I have looked for work in walmart and other retail stores but still no luck.
BTW, in some places in your state (probably far from you), Amazon is hiring:
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