Hello all,
I guess I just want a little vent and some advice. I am so fed up with feeling so emotionally detatched all the time!! I think I've been like this for a while now, but it hasn't been especially bothersome until these last few months. I think that's because I've been under a lot of stress and I've been able to notice the absence more than I would normally. All this stuff is happening around me; it feels like one crisis after another at the moment. But I can't feel it. All I feel is this horrible tension that either worsens to the point where my whole body is tensed up and my mind races if I'm really stressed, or looser if the pressure is off. How can I be so totally overwhelmed but not be able to feel emotion about it? Flashbacks bring some emotion, it's almost a relief to feel it, but it's always very short-lived. Sometimes I just want to bawl and let it all out, but it feels stuck inside. I am engaged and worried (or feel that I should be, anyway!) because I am less and less able to give or receive affection. A friend of mine came into uni today very upset because of something that had happened with a friend of hers. She walked through the door into our little office and started crying and talked and let it all out and, while I'm obviously not jealous of her situation and did my best to listen empathically, I just thought, "I wish I could do that sometimes!" What do I do instead? I laugh!! I have an incredible defensive laugh! It all just makes me feel so isolated, even when I have friends all around me. That's the vent!
Now, what can I do to help fix this?? I'm having counselling for problems stemming from sexual abuse, and it's going ok, but I am curious as to whether other people have had good results from a particular approach that they could share about. Any ideas?
Thanks,
Meg
I guess I just want a little vent and some advice. I am so fed up with feeling so emotionally detatched all the time!! I think I've been like this for a while now, but it hasn't been especially bothersome until these last few months. I think that's because I've been under a lot of stress and I've been able to notice the absence more than I would normally. All this stuff is happening around me; it feels like one crisis after another at the moment. But I can't feel it. All I feel is this horrible tension that either worsens to the point where my whole body is tensed up and my mind races if I'm really stressed, or looser if the pressure is off. How can I be so totally overwhelmed but not be able to feel emotion about it? Flashbacks bring some emotion, it's almost a relief to feel it, but it's always very short-lived. Sometimes I just want to bawl and let it all out, but it feels stuck inside. I am engaged and worried (or feel that I should be, anyway!) because I am less and less able to give or receive affection. A friend of mine came into uni today very upset because of something that had happened with a friend of hers. She walked through the door into our little office and started crying and talked and let it all out and, while I'm obviously not jealous of her situation and did my best to listen empathically, I just thought, "I wish I could do that sometimes!" What do I do instead? I laugh!! I have an incredible defensive laugh! It all just makes me feel so isolated, even when I have friends all around me. That's the vent!
Now, what can I do to help fix this?? I'm having counselling for problems stemming from sexual abuse, and it's going ok, but I am curious as to whether other people have had good results from a particular approach that they could share about. Any ideas?
Thanks,
Meg