HotthenCold
Member
Hiya,
just need to vent a bit about how crappy I feel because I can't party anymore.
I'm 7 months sober and still dealing with a lot of early recovery stuff (I consider this early still), and I can't go to the music festivals I love so much. I really am so drawn to the electronic music scene, I love the music, costumes, craziness, and vibe and the people, but there are so many drugs around and I just get too crazy when I do them. They just cause me untold anguish on so many levels.
The thing is I know these parties are happening, and I want to badly to be a part of them. All of my old friends are going, and living it up, and I just feel like I'm missing out in such a big way! I figure it's possible that eventually, in a year or two I'll be able to go to those festivals once I'm stronger in my sobriety, but it is such a drag right now.
Connecting with people in the program (AA) is ok, but it's just not the same. I am living such an isolated life, and have been for a while now and it's getting so boring and lonely. Gah. I don't even feel that good about my sobriety. I feel mediocre at best. It's nice to not have all of that old craziness and anxiety, but I feel like I'm missing out so much!
That's about it. I know it's not really much of a problem, but it sure hurts.
just need to vent a bit about how crappy I feel because I can't party anymore.
I'm 7 months sober and still dealing with a lot of early recovery stuff (I consider this early still), and I can't go to the music festivals I love so much. I really am so drawn to the electronic music scene, I love the music, costumes, craziness, and vibe and the people, but there are so many drugs around and I just get too crazy when I do them. They just cause me untold anguish on so many levels.
The thing is I know these parties are happening, and I want to badly to be a part of them. All of my old friends are going, and living it up, and I just feel like I'm missing out in such a big way! I figure it's possible that eventually, in a year or two I'll be able to go to those festivals once I'm stronger in my sobriety, but it is such a drag right now.
Connecting with people in the program (AA) is ok, but it's just not the same. I am living such an isolated life, and have been for a while now and it's getting so boring and lonely. Gah. I don't even feel that good about my sobriety. I feel mediocre at best. It's nice to not have all of that old craziness and anxiety, but I feel like I'm missing out so much!
That's about it. I know it's not really much of a problem, but it sure hurts.