Hey my name is SJ, please refer to a previous posting I made about a year ago on this site
I can't ppost the link on this site yet...BS anyway
turns out my "re-emerging" anxiety symptoms were actually physical rather than psychological. The month I posted this was when I finally realized that what was happening to me was the result of something far more insidious. Although I had tingling in my arms while I had "night terrors" I dismissed it. I thought my fatigue was because of depression, but how does one treat depression when one believes her life is as it should be? how does one treat "social phobia" when it happens at home, while you are perfectly fine to go to parties, clubs, and participate in a fashion show.
Anyway, Oct 09 I began to get chest pain and swelling in my arms and legs. my gum disease progressed in spite of changes to my dental hygiene. I felt like my face was being eaten, I was nauseous, confused, experiencing vertigo. I went to the hospital four times. No one could find anything wrong with me. I went to north york general hospital where I participate in an outpatient program for people with psychological disorders (because presumably i must be more than just an agoraphobiac to actually believe I was dieing)
They dismissed my claims that I was physically sick for the first week. then my test results came in saying I was hyperthyroid and positive for ANA (autoimmune antibodies).
Then my lymphnodes (permanently)swelled up, felt thirsty all the time, had rheunaud?s in my arms where my knuckles would turn blue.
The people at the hospital decided they would not put me on medication for any psychological problems (I maintained that I had humoured, obviously from my last post, the idea that all this was psychological for two years and did nothing but get progressively worse).
The first thing I was tested for when I went to my doc in November was lyme disease, to which I tested negative. I was bit by a tick about the time when my symptoms started.
Then I went to an endocrinologist about the hyperthyroid....it was gone.
Then I went to a rheumatologist about the ANA....and it was also gone.
then i participated in a mindfulness meditation group to help me deal with my physical and inevitable emotional issues (with great success)
then i went to Branson hospital for another outpatient pshycological program. I figured that if i kept going to these things, and kept being told i didn't need meds, and reasoned with them I'd get something that officially said i did not in fact suffer from a psychological disorder and that more aggressive testing needed to be done...this was naive...I left because of my health (dizziness, nausea, chronic constipation, INTENSE confusion, losing consciousness, arthritis pain, burning muscles)
Then I start to take proton pump inhibitors. some symptoms improved. so i went to a GI specialist.
I am on the max amount of omeprazol and have finally been diagnosed with sever gerd. I should start nexium soon.
I found a lyme disease specialist in toronto and got a referral from my doctor. After talking to him, he decided to put me on tetracycline (antibiotic) for four months. he did an ultrasound on my lymphnodes and they are indeed very swollen. He says I could have an infectious disease.
I have just finished my first week on tetracycline and have begun vomiting badly. I went to a GI scope and was told my stomach "was very inflamed" and to make an appointment. I was then told to stop taking my tetracycline.
as of yet, the only diagnosis I have is GERD (which 70% of the population has anyway).
It is now drawing close to the date in which I can reapply for ODSP.
the month I made my first post, I quit both my jobs...then I quite school because I could not make it to class or complete assignments. I have been on ontario works since february.
Please give me advice on how to reapply, if theres anyway i can speed up the process, or how i can get more benefits from OW while I'm waiting. I get 300.00 a month from them and live with my parents. my special diet allowance doesn't even cover my probiotics. I also have vitamin deficiencies which I have to pay for and go through as lot of antacids.
I'm really confused about how to work this system cause i've been trying for three years to get some sort of attention and im getting older and sicker and the only treatment option to me now is "experimental" at best.
How do i reapply to ODSP when i don't even have a diagnosis?
I can't ppost the link on this site yet...BS anyway
turns out my "re-emerging" anxiety symptoms were actually physical rather than psychological. The month I posted this was when I finally realized that what was happening to me was the result of something far more insidious. Although I had tingling in my arms while I had "night terrors" I dismissed it. I thought my fatigue was because of depression, but how does one treat depression when one believes her life is as it should be? how does one treat "social phobia" when it happens at home, while you are perfectly fine to go to parties, clubs, and participate in a fashion show.
Anyway, Oct 09 I began to get chest pain and swelling in my arms and legs. my gum disease progressed in spite of changes to my dental hygiene. I felt like my face was being eaten, I was nauseous, confused, experiencing vertigo. I went to the hospital four times. No one could find anything wrong with me. I went to north york general hospital where I participate in an outpatient program for people with psychological disorders (because presumably i must be more than just an agoraphobiac to actually believe I was dieing)
They dismissed my claims that I was physically sick for the first week. then my test results came in saying I was hyperthyroid and positive for ANA (autoimmune antibodies).
Then my lymphnodes (permanently)swelled up, felt thirsty all the time, had rheunaud?s in my arms where my knuckles would turn blue.
The people at the hospital decided they would not put me on medication for any psychological problems (I maintained that I had humoured, obviously from my last post, the idea that all this was psychological for two years and did nothing but get progressively worse).
The first thing I was tested for when I went to my doc in November was lyme disease, to which I tested negative. I was bit by a tick about the time when my symptoms started.
Then I went to an endocrinologist about the hyperthyroid....it was gone.
Then I went to a rheumatologist about the ANA....and it was also gone.
then i participated in a mindfulness meditation group to help me deal with my physical and inevitable emotional issues (with great success)
then i went to Branson hospital for another outpatient pshycological program. I figured that if i kept going to these things, and kept being told i didn't need meds, and reasoned with them I'd get something that officially said i did not in fact suffer from a psychological disorder and that more aggressive testing needed to be done...this was naive...I left because of my health (dizziness, nausea, chronic constipation, INTENSE confusion, losing consciousness, arthritis pain, burning muscles)
Then I start to take proton pump inhibitors. some symptoms improved. so i went to a GI specialist.
I am on the max amount of omeprazol and have finally been diagnosed with sever gerd. I should start nexium soon.
I found a lyme disease specialist in toronto and got a referral from my doctor. After talking to him, he decided to put me on tetracycline (antibiotic) for four months. he did an ultrasound on my lymphnodes and they are indeed very swollen. He says I could have an infectious disease.
I have just finished my first week on tetracycline and have begun vomiting badly. I went to a GI scope and was told my stomach "was very inflamed" and to make an appointment. I was then told to stop taking my tetracycline.
as of yet, the only diagnosis I have is GERD (which 70% of the population has anyway).
It is now drawing close to the date in which I can reapply for ODSP.
the month I made my first post, I quit both my jobs...then I quite school because I could not make it to class or complete assignments. I have been on ontario works since february.
Please give me advice on how to reapply, if theres anyway i can speed up the process, or how i can get more benefits from OW while I'm waiting. I get 300.00 a month from them and live with my parents. my special diet allowance doesn't even cover my probiotics. I also have vitamin deficiencies which I have to pay for and go through as lot of antacids.
I'm really confused about how to work this system cause i've been trying for three years to get some sort of attention and im getting older and sicker and the only treatment option to me now is "experimental" at best.
How do i reapply to ODSP when i don't even have a diagnosis?
