I have gone a week now with only a few small things that I have taken in. I am starting to over excersise again, just wanting to get my mind away from everything else. It only makes me hurt more as my body has already taking a beating.
I am so hungry yet when I try to eat its like my body screams out-- NO!!! I went grocery shopping and bought some of my most favorite food items so that maybe it would help able me to force something down. So far my attempts with food have failed.
My doctor is concerned about the weight again as I have lost several pounds recently. He is sending me for blood work and that scares me to death.
Things had changed so much in regards to food issues, I was trying to hold on to the mind set that food is not bad: its the illness that destroys the ones it tries to control. I know that this is only a set back but I feel really down with the fact that I am at this point again. One thing that I had discovered about myself is when I am struggling with other serious issues in my life, the eating problems heighten. I also realized that with the lack of nutrition in my body its hard to make sense of anything, the confusion frustrates me as my mind seems unclear. Even writing this is hard, I have to keep going back to read what I had typed, often needing to fix the jumbled up mess. My t said that as I starve my body, I starve my brain so the confusion and inability to focus only makes sense.
My doc wants me to buy some drink supplements so I am going to purchase a few different types and try this. Maybe this will be successful.
(please ignore my terrible spelling)
Thanks,
Haunting
I am so hungry yet when I try to eat its like my body screams out-- NO!!! I went grocery shopping and bought some of my most favorite food items so that maybe it would help able me to force something down. So far my attempts with food have failed.
My doctor is concerned about the weight again as I have lost several pounds recently. He is sending me for blood work and that scares me to death.
Things had changed so much in regards to food issues, I was trying to hold on to the mind set that food is not bad: its the illness that destroys the ones it tries to control. I know that this is only a set back but I feel really down with the fact that I am at this point again. One thing that I had discovered about myself is when I am struggling with other serious issues in my life, the eating problems heighten. I also realized that with the lack of nutrition in my body its hard to make sense of anything, the confusion frustrates me as my mind seems unclear. Even writing this is hard, I have to keep going back to read what I had typed, often needing to fix the jumbled up mess. My t said that as I starve my body, I starve my brain so the confusion and inability to focus only makes sense.
My doc wants me to buy some drink supplements so I am going to purchase a few different types and try this. Maybe this will be successful.
(please ignore my terrible spelling)
Thanks,
Haunting