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dasha

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I have been seeing a psychiatrist at a psych hospital for about 15 yrs and on the weekend found out I have BPD (went to the ER of a psych. hospital)when all this time my psych. told me I was dealing with trauma and confirmed PTSD. But something inside hasn't felt right about the PTSD diagnosis. I almost always feel dead inside, a slight depression looming over me and sometimes it takes over as a full depression or turns into impatience, leading to rage, sometimes verbal and other times physical, like this past weekend. I almost lost complete hope until the doc in the ER told me I have BPD. What should I do?. I have left a message for my doc to get back to me(he still hasn't called from the last time 10 days ago) and don't know what to do. I feel something is coming on. Should I get another doc? The medical system in Quebec is really bad. Any ideas?
 

Jazzey

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Hi Dasha,

You had asked the same thing in your introduction and received some responses...I'm wondering why you're reposting here?

....All of the psychlinks members can read your post in the introductions section too....
 

Mari

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Should I get another doc?

Are you referring to your psychiatrist? If you are seeing your psychiatrist each week, is it the holiday break that has kept you from your appointment for ten days? I am a bit confused and just want to be clear on the situation. I do hope that you get to speak with one of your doctors on this matter soon. :heart: Mari
 

dasha

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Well the first time he did not call me back was over a week before xmas and he called and left a message with an appt for me and I called back and left the message that I couln't make it. That was before xmas and he had time to call me again. The last message ?I left was this weekend and really don't expect him to call right away. But after 15 yrs I know he doesn't take vacation during the holidays, but who knows? So i give him the benefit of the doubt.

dasha added 7 Minutes and 2 Seconds later...

Hi Dasha,

You had asked the same thing in your introduction and received some responses...I'm wondering why you're reposting here?

....All of the psychlinks members can read your post in the introductions section too....

Sorry just getting used to the way this all works. I am also not really having an easy time of it today. Sorry again
 
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Mari

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That is okay dasha, I actually think that it is better to continue the thread here than in the members introduction section. I still get lost navigating the forum :heart: Mari
 

Jazzey

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Hi Dasha - no worries. Only after I posted this did I notice that the question wasn't exactly the same....:) It's all good.
 

dasha

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Thanks for the direction. It seems I am all over the place... not just in my head. You did make a good point, though. P.s. I hope you don't mind but I have to say the picture of the dog you use for your signature is absolutely gorgeous. Is it yours? I have 3 and they keep me balanced most of the time and having them around is a godsend. I am a dog lover (maniac is more like it!) Thanks again for the support
 

Jazzey

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I wish the dog were mine.:) This is an avatar from this site. If you go into your profile, top left corner, you'll find how to edit your profile. One of the features is picking an avatar...:) That's where I got him.
 

dasha

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That is okay dasha, I actually think that it is better to continue the thread here than in the members introduction section. I still get lost navigating the forum :heart: Mari

Thanks for the support. it is much appreciated. it seems I could easily write in a few of these forums seeing as I am feeling really off balance these days with the shrink I have been seeing for so long. I feel hurt and abandoned. Is that normal?
 

Jazzey

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I think we always have moments when we feel hurt and/or abandoned especially when we're feeling low. But try and keep some perspective Dasha - you don't know why you didn't hear back from the doctor. Have you tried contacting the doctor again?
 

dasha

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Well the last time I had heard from him was the day after I left his secretary a to-the-point message and he called me when I was not at home and he knows when I work. He said when my next appt was which was the next morning. I called back and left a message saying I could not make it and that I wanted to reschedule. That was 11 days ago.(the week before xmas). Since then I left a message this past weekend and I do believe he works today but I think he is playing the mean shrink!:
 

Jazzey

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:) - Or he was busy today?/ not at work today?(we're not too far off from Christmas)...Maybe try calling again tomorrow Dasha, just to touch base?
 

dasha

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I don't want to call too often because he may just decide to make me wait more. About 15 yrs ago when I first went to see him at that time twice a week, he brought stuff up and it ended up in a deep depression leading to my having to stay in the hospital. At one point I really needed to talk to him and the nurse told him. All he said to her is that I would have to wait until our next appt. That did something because it sent me into a state. Since then there have been times when the secretary doesn't call me back for days or a week will pass before I get a call from him. He just seems like he has an overinflated ego and at times I have asked why he doesn't call back...no answer. Sometimes I think he does it on purpose.
 

Jazzey

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...I'd still call Dasha. Worse case scenario, you may find out that he's not in the office this week.:)
 

dasha

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I haven't called back because I am afraid she won't answer and that will send me into a whirlwind of a state. I don't know what I will do when I do see him(if I do). I am full of rage and I have become violent in the past and...you know. But I may still leave a message but wait a day or two. Thanks for the great support.
 

Jazzey

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Hi Dasha;

I know you're angry - and that's precisely why I think you should call. It might just take away some of that anger. There may very well be a good explanation for all of it.

If you call and there's no answer, you still have to keep in mind this time of year. When you see him, I would advise against showing him any rage (I know you already know this) - it won't help you at all and, if anything, it'll take away all of your credibility...In any event, we're all here for you at psychlinks - feel free to lean on us.
 

Jazzey

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Let me know what you decide and how it goes Dasha - if you're comfortable with that.

You'll be in my thoughts.
 

dasha

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Iam seriously thinking of leaving a message for him within the next couple of days. ?Will let you know. Thanks
 
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