My life is passing me by and although I know I have to make changes in order to live my life I often feel lonely and depressed. As I write this I waiting to be picked up to go to the supermarket and dread the thought of it since I very self-conscious about what people think about me, especially strangers. I often have at least one person say something horrible about me in public places and it hurts.
I am considered a shy person and even when I tried to break this label people still thought of me as quiet. My mother has a habit of telling everyone she meets her children are quiet and makes us sound like idiots and labels tend to stick.
Not being naturally extrovert means I care what people think and this has caused problems- I lost my friends, and the remaining few treated me badly and went out of their way to stop people wanting to know me by putting me down. Therefore I made a choice to leave them since they weren't really friends for purposely hurting me.
By doing this I made a new start but for a long time I was scared of repercussions; and it contributed to me thinking no one wants to know me; people will hate me and I'm useless. There are other people and things have played a part, also.
I scared to mix with people and I often meet people(through work etc) who are rude, talk about me and criticise the way I look or for other reasons. Often people do not want to talk to me. I guess some people think I snobby and others probably think I'm not worth knowing.
I know I am intelligent- I've studied hard- that's one thing I have, but I realise I am not making the most of myself which depresses me.
To cope with verbal abuse and anxiety, I avoided places where I was more likely to happen- such as clubs and pubs where I never seemed to fit in. It was a good strategy at the time, but now I worry about going to places. It has effected my job prospects, my relationships and it's time to do something about it.
I am considered a shy person and even when I tried to break this label people still thought of me as quiet. My mother has a habit of telling everyone she meets her children are quiet and makes us sound like idiots and labels tend to stick.
Not being naturally extrovert means I care what people think and this has caused problems- I lost my friends, and the remaining few treated me badly and went out of their way to stop people wanting to know me by putting me down. Therefore I made a choice to leave them since they weren't really friends for purposely hurting me.
By doing this I made a new start but for a long time I was scared of repercussions; and it contributed to me thinking no one wants to know me; people will hate me and I'm useless. There are other people and things have played a part, also.
I scared to mix with people and I often meet people(through work etc) who are rude, talk about me and criticise the way I look or for other reasons. Often people do not want to talk to me. I guess some people think I snobby and others probably think I'm not worth knowing.
I know I am intelligent- I've studied hard- that's one thing I have, but I realise I am not making the most of myself which depresses me.
To cope with verbal abuse and anxiety, I avoided places where I was more likely to happen- such as clubs and pubs where I never seemed to fit in. It was a good strategy at the time, but now I worry about going to places. It has effected my job prospects, my relationships and it's time to do something about it.
