healthbound
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Hi Everyone! It's been for-eh-VER since I've posted. I think about you guys often and wonder how everyone is doing. I also feel a bit guilty because it has been so long since I've been here and now I'm here to post about challenges I'm having. But I suppose that's what the forums are for, right? :red:
Actually, my challenge is somewhat related to my not being here and not maintaining connections with people. I recently had my last session with my therapist. I've been seeing her at least once a week for the last 5 and 1/2 years (I know...I didn't know you could actually be in therapy that long either!). I am feeling very sad and already miss my sessions. I also realized I used them to "safely" fulfill my need for human interaction. I haven't been creating or maintaining any strong connections with other people and so of course, now I feel rather alone.
I guess there are a few things going on... The reason I logged on was because I was feeling a sense of panic that I feared would become overwhelming. I think I'm reminded of the past since I feel like I've been left to fend for myself but am scared I can't (even though I've known for months my sessions were coming to an end). I feel out of control and I really don't like it.
I also just realized that some of the "old" behaviors I've been engaging in are only enforcing my sense of being out of control (binging, sleeping in etc). Instead of talking or writing about how I'm feeling (or even using some of the skills I've learned over the past few years), I'm resorting to destructive coping. So I'm contributing to the part of me that is saying, "See, I told you. You can't survive on your own. You suck." etc. Yuck.
I used to feel comforted knowing I'd see my T to work through some of this stuff. So now I just need to focus on coping in healthier ways.
Anyhooo it seems my genuine sadness about the end of a significant relationship combined with some intense thoughts and feelings from the past and lack of a social network is a bit overwhelming.
lol...I think I pretty much just worked through my challenge by ramble-writing. Thank God (or David) for psychlinks
Man, I've missed you guys.
Actually, my challenge is somewhat related to my not being here and not maintaining connections with people. I recently had my last session with my therapist. I've been seeing her at least once a week for the last 5 and 1/2 years (I know...I didn't know you could actually be in therapy that long either!). I am feeling very sad and already miss my sessions. I also realized I used them to "safely" fulfill my need for human interaction. I haven't been creating or maintaining any strong connections with other people and so of course, now I feel rather alone.
I guess there are a few things going on... The reason I logged on was because I was feeling a sense of panic that I feared would become overwhelming. I think I'm reminded of the past since I feel like I've been left to fend for myself but am scared I can't (even though I've known for months my sessions were coming to an end). I feel out of control and I really don't like it.
I also just realized that some of the "old" behaviors I've been engaging in are only enforcing my sense of being out of control (binging, sleeping in etc). Instead of talking or writing about how I'm feeling (or even using some of the skills I've learned over the past few years), I'm resorting to destructive coping. So I'm contributing to the part of me that is saying, "See, I told you. You can't survive on your own. You suck." etc. Yuck.
I used to feel comforted knowing I'd see my T to work through some of this stuff. So now I just need to focus on coping in healthier ways.
Anyhooo it seems my genuine sadness about the end of a significant relationship combined with some intense thoughts and feelings from the past and lack of a social network is a bit overwhelming.
lol...I think I pretty much just worked through my challenge by ramble-writing. Thank God (or David) for psychlinks