BluMac81
Member
Why bother with this life. 26 years I have lived and have never felt happiness, only pain, sorrow, agony, regret, remorse, and the like. I try to 'stop and smell the roses' so to speak in my everyday life but really....see nothing positive outthere. I enjoy nothing.
I sit here now staring at three bottles of pills... and thinking about how I could end it all right now. End all of my to-do lists, my obligations, my unending depression.
But... leaving behind a deep pain for my sisters and mother who a care about and love deeply is too much for me to bear, even beyond death. So suffice to say, they are the reason why i am still alive. Otherwise I don't see a point in this drab world.
I sit here now staring at three bottles of pills... and thinking about how I could end it all right now. End all of my to-do lists, my obligations, my unending depression.
But... leaving behind a deep pain for my sisters and mother who a care about and love deeply is too much for me to bear, even beyond death. So suffice to say, they are the reason why i am still alive. Otherwise I don't see a point in this drab world.