here it is very fast, shes left me, said she still loved me and that she wanted to be friends and that she did want to be with me just not at that time and that she wouldn't hurt me, then she slept with my best mate.
So since then i've coped pretty damn well, i get over it (not moved on) in about two weeks get myself a job and got some new mates aswell. I never stopped thinking about my ex, and i'm not going to lie, i do still love her.
So on sunday night she emailed me after 2 months apart, it was kind of out of the blue and i had to take a double take at it. I was thinking about getting in touch with her, but i didn't want to put myself back seeing how well i was doing.
She told me that she couldn't stop thinking about me and that she really missed me, and that she was talking to her brother and she thinks that she may of made a mistake splitting up with me (3 year relationship).
I just didn't know what to do, i was happy that shes got in touch but at the same point scared. So i phoned her, she didn't answer so i left her a message, she then emailed me again and said that it was so good to hear my voice and that she really miss's me. So i phoned her last night and we had a really good talk, nothing heavy i just told her how i was doing, about my job etc. Then she emailed me again last night, just telling me how she was feeling. By last night i was starting to feel anxious and i don't want to. So i phoned her and said straight to her, "What do you want?" like does she want me back or is she ****ing about!
So she told me she doesn't know what she wants.
I know what i want, i want her back, even after what she did to me. (Im not a doormat) i love here more than anyone even she knows. And i would do anything to have her back. I was pretty cool when talking to her but i did tell her i wanted her back, she started crying at that point, so i've now told her that i want to meet her some time next week, but to have no contact till then, to give her time to think and because i think if we spoke everyday it would be too much too soon.
But now im feelin really really really anxious, like i feel sick all the time, and i want to cry all the time aswell. I even left work early today without telling anyone i was feeling so bad. All i think about is her, and whether she's going to want me back like i want her back, or if she just wants to be friends, which i can't do, i can't be her friend when all i want is to be with her again.
I'm not a push over and im not a doormat, it's just stuff like this gets to men more than it does women, men - so hard yet so emotional.
I'm not sure what you can say to this, but please someone can you give some advice, i don't want to feel anxious all week, and i don't want to be back to square one if she says she doesnt want me back.
So since then i've coped pretty damn well, i get over it (not moved on) in about two weeks get myself a job and got some new mates aswell. I never stopped thinking about my ex, and i'm not going to lie, i do still love her.
So on sunday night she emailed me after 2 months apart, it was kind of out of the blue and i had to take a double take at it. I was thinking about getting in touch with her, but i didn't want to put myself back seeing how well i was doing.
She told me that she couldn't stop thinking about me and that she really missed me, and that she was talking to her brother and she thinks that she may of made a mistake splitting up with me (3 year relationship).
I just didn't know what to do, i was happy that shes got in touch but at the same point scared. So i phoned her, she didn't answer so i left her a message, she then emailed me again and said that it was so good to hear my voice and that she really miss's me. So i phoned her last night and we had a really good talk, nothing heavy i just told her how i was doing, about my job etc. Then she emailed me again last night, just telling me how she was feeling. By last night i was starting to feel anxious and i don't want to. So i phoned her and said straight to her, "What do you want?" like does she want me back or is she ****ing about!
So she told me she doesn't know what she wants.
I know what i want, i want her back, even after what she did to me. (Im not a doormat) i love here more than anyone even she knows. And i would do anything to have her back. I was pretty cool when talking to her but i did tell her i wanted her back, she started crying at that point, so i've now told her that i want to meet her some time next week, but to have no contact till then, to give her time to think and because i think if we spoke everyday it would be too much too soon.
But now im feelin really really really anxious, like i feel sick all the time, and i want to cry all the time aswell. I even left work early today without telling anyone i was feeling so bad. All i think about is her, and whether she's going to want me back like i want her back, or if she just wants to be friends, which i can't do, i can't be her friend when all i want is to be with her again.
I'm not a push over and im not a doormat, it's just stuff like this gets to men more than it does women, men - so hard yet so emotional.
I'm not sure what you can say to this, but please someone can you give some advice, i don't want to feel anxious all week, and i don't want to be back to square one if she says she doesnt want me back.