Getting very stressed out with my doctors

[Steven_v]

a couple of weeks ago i went to my consultant doctor at the mental health ward of my hospital, for a check up. id barely said five( most of wich he didnt listen to) words to him before he said i think your doing fine ushered me out of the room and said i'll see you in the new year. he did say anything when i told him i wasnt doing well, or that id took myself of my medication (not that i think he heard most of it). so a few days later i had an apointment with my pycopherapist (who actually listens to me and knows iam not doing to well) and i asked him to have a word with my doctor cause it had really stressed me out as he didnt seem to care what i had to say (for a start i came of my medication cause i knew it wasnt working, and i was right i felt no change since. so oviously i wanted to talk about going on medication that works). my phyrapist said that he would. next week i was with me phyrapist again and he said that he talked to my doctor (at the mental health ward) and that my doctor thought i was doing fine (i have the feeling that my doctor didnt listen to him either). so again very stressed out.
anyway i went to see my gp today (for an unrelated reason) he was saying how he thinks that iam doing better (even though all i asked him for was a repeat prescription for some cream, and i didnt say anything other than that). and when i said "well i dont feel better" he said that my doctor (form the mental health ward) said that i was doing better. so i told my gp "i dont know how he can come to that conclusion when i only saw him for five minutes. unless his f**king psicic". my gp didnt say anything just gave me my prescription so i left.

when i got home i decided to call the mental health ward and ask if they could get me an apointment sooner. at first the women on the phone said i had one in august so i thought ok thats cool. she then rang back and said that she'd got it wrong it wasnt till january next year. i asked if i could get one sooner and she said that my doctor had left a note saying that i didnt need to and that he thinks iam fine. i said well i need an apointment sooner, she said the only way is to see if my gp will talked to my doctor.

Why doe my doctor think he can make the judgement that iam doing well when he didnt even speak to me? it seems to me as if they just want to sign me off there books or something. its really starting to p*ss me of.

so what do i do now?

 

[Rosa]

I am soooooo sorry for all that your having to go thru....it sounds like a nightmare.....I don't have any real advise (I'm sure others will) I just wanted you to know I feel really bad for what your going thru. It just doesn't make sense why they would treat you this way, but I'm sure your not alone.
In friendship
Rosa

 

[Steven_v]

i know it just doesnt make sense do they know something me and my therapist dont. i mean surely iam the one that can tell if iam doing ok not them. i just dont know what to do to get them to listen

 

[Rosa]

It doesn't make sinse at all and I can just imagine how frustrating this must be for you. Perhaps you should just keep calling until they listen to you. I understand its hard to get an appointment but perhaps if you call often enough they might give in and bring you in again. In which case I would definately write down everything I want to say and tell them you won't leave until you've had a chance to go over your list.
Good luck. you certainly don't deserve to be treated this way.
In friendship
Rosa

 

[Rosa]

I was just thinking....is it possible for you to change doctors at the mental health place? Maybe you could find someone with a little compassion who will listen to you?
In friendship
Rosa

 

[Kanadiana]

Hi Steven,

Just a quick idea here, but maybe you could get your psychotherapist to back you up somehow, perhaps a note from him/her to your gp and/or whoever?

I don't know if this is good advice or not, but it's something I meself would try if I were in your shoes.

I don't know if you've made other posts so don't "know you" or anything else except this one post/thread of yours.

K.

 

[Steven_v]

i was thinking of doing that only problem is my the next time i see my psychotherapist is in 3 weeks. so ive got a stressfull wait either way

 

[foghlaim]

Hi Steve, was reading your post here and got to thinking like the others here about your psychologist backing you up with a letter to the psychiatrist. but now that you have posted that you have to wait three weeks, maybe you could write about how you are really feeling, symptoms ect.. and post it to the psychiatrist, keeping a copy for your psychologist. don't now if it'll make a diff but it's worth a try maybe??

all the best..

nsa

 

[ThatLady]

Could you, perhaps, give your psychotherapist a call and tell him/her what happened? If it's understood how important this is to you, and how much you're suffering as a result of the doctor's failure to hear your pain, your psychotherapist might be willing to intercede for you.

 

[Steven_v]

he did already try once. but when i see him next iam gona ask him to try again

 

[Steven_v]

ok, just been to my GP and he said that he cant really do much cause my psychiatrist is under no obligation to listen to him. but he said he can try me on a milder anti-depressent for a few weeks see how iam then if iam no better suggest to my psychiatrist to make me another apointment.
the only thing iam not getting in terms of my medication that ive only just realisead. is i was on fluoxatine (an anti depressent), now my GP has put me on escitalopram (an anti depressent). but i was told about 7 months ago (about 4 months after i went on fluoxatine for clinical depression and pyscosis, wich was my first diognosis as well as mild o.c.d) that i was manic depressive, wich ive read (and it even says in my new medications leaflet) should be treated with something called lithium, and that anti-depressents dont work with manic depression. so whats going on there?

 

[David Baxter PhD]

i was told abot 7 months ago (about 4 months after i went on fluoxatine for clinical depression and pyscosis) that i was manic depressive, wich ive read (and it even says in my new medication leaflet) should be treated with something called lithium, and that anti-depressents dont work with manic depression.

No, that's incorrect. Even assuming the diagnosis of bipolar disorder (manic depression) is correct, many individuals are treated with medications like escitalopram or fluoxetine to manage the depressive symptoms. It is true that some may require a mood stabilizer such as lithium or lamotrigine or valproic acid in addition to the antidepressant, but not all people with bipolar disorder necessarily need to remain on mood stabilizers all the time. If you began to show signs of hypomania, your doctor would likely recommend that you start a mood stabilizer at that time.

 

[Steven_v]

ah ok, thats cool. I was thinking maybe i didnt hear the diognosis right or that they were just giving me the wrong kind of medication.
thanks for the info puts my mind at rest a bit. cheers.

p.s. still dont know what to do about getting an apointment with my psychiatrist though lol. although hopefully the new medication will work better and i wont need to

 

[Rosa]

just thought i'd stop by to see how you were doing....any updates?
In friendship
Rosa

 

[Steven_v]

just the new medication from my gp, but its only been a couple of days so dont know if it will work

 

[Steven_v]

today has been a realy bad day. ive been dwelling on something bad a did ages ago that i dont think ive told my doctors about. its been screwing my head up all day and i really need to speak to one of my doctors but i cant get hold of any of them. i feel like i did just before i went into hospital, i think my pysicosis is coming back. i really dont know what to do iam feeling suicidal, i know iam not gona get any sleep tonight and i being physicaly sick with the worry and stress

 

[ThatLady]

Try to get it set in your mind that what you did ages ago is past. The you that was then is NOT the you that is now. That person is gone, and you're in the present. We can't continue to beat ourselves up over past mistakes and expect not to feel bad. I know it's easier to say than to do, but it's important that you make every possible effort to stop dwelling on the past, as that will only cause you more problems.

 

[Steven_v]

i just feel i need to talk to one of my doctors though get it off my chest, its just easier if somebody knows. even when its something thats near impossible to speak about. also like i said i've had this weird srewy feeling in my head since last night when i started thinking about, and iam scaired my pyscosis is coming back

 

[Halo]

I know that it can be scary when you are holding something in but maybe releasing whatever is causing you stress and hurt here on the forum can help if you can't get a hold of one of your doctors. I know that just venting on here helps me a lot.

Just an option?

 

[Steven_v]

its a pretty serious thing but here we go. 3-4 years ago when i was sixteen i twice came across child pornorgraphy sites , one of the times i masterbated.(this my doctors know about) straight after i felt so sickened with myself i tried to slit my wrist and i threw up. i never ever went onto or wanted to see anything like that ever again, but i didnt tell anyone. 3 or so years later it all got to much and i broke down and attempted to kill myself countless times cause i thought i was a pedophile. i finally told someboday and started to get help they took me into hospital and after lots of therapy, and anti-depressents managed to make me realise that what i did does not make me a pedophile. they helped me to try and put it in the past basically (and made me realise that i dont have pedophile personality traits and other pedophile traits. and made me focus on things such as that i'd never done it before or since, and that iam clearly sickened by the idea). but the other day a was thinking about the worst thing id ever done it was at the same time as i looked at the stuff on the internet. i saw some kids in a padling pool next door and i went off to my bedroom and masterbated.

now you can see why i need talk to my doctor and why o feel so sucidal