Going to see Dr. K

[Charity]

I actually spoke to him briefly earlier-- he said he will be calling me up later to talk about things. I know this is something that I absolutely have to get settled one way or the other. I don't know if we'll be able to work out an arrangement that fits his crazy schedule and is still consistent and fair to me, but I kind of hope we can. I'm realizing that I like having someone to spill things to other than just my husband! There's not really anyone else out here in real life that I can talk to on more than the most superficial level, so I do like the idea of having a sounding board. Hopefully he calls me up there soon, and we can figure out once and for all whether or not we'll be continuing to meet, and if so, on what terms. (As in, no more of this "I'll call you at some unknown time when I'm good and ready!)
I will, of course, be back on here as soon as we've spoken to tell how it all went. I'm nervous! I hate uncertainty.

 

[white page]

:support: hi charity , note down the issues you want to discuss with him , and stick out for a clear answer for each of them .:hug: will be thinking about you .

 

[Charity]

I think we've got things hammered out!
We discussed the practical side of things, and we've pretty much met in the middle as best we can. I know that my next session with him will be in two weeks on the 20th, somewhere around noon-- I'll pop by in the morning to get a more exact time. It's acceptable to both of us, and that's what matters.

Even better, I opened up more fully to him today than I've ever been able to in the past, and I think our relationship is going to be better in the future. I told him that there's still a lot about me that he doesn't know, and it's up to me to be more open and honest with him, as it's his job to help lead me in the right direction. I think we might finally be heading into a productive therapeutic relationship-- I do hope I'm right! I just know that I feel more at peace with the situation.

My assignment this week is a repeat of the first one I was given: I'm basically to write my life story for him to the best of my ability. I did do it in the beginning, but I didn't have as clear an idea of what to focus on and in what way to best approach it, and now I think I'll be writing something that's of much more help to us both. I have two weeks to work on it, so I think I can do it pretty well, especially if I stay in this unusually-high-functioning state I've been for the last week or so. Heck, normally all of this car business (another thread) would have completely collapsed me, and here I am responding in what I think is a very normal and expected version of disappointment. I know better than to look too far ahead; I gotta go one day at a time-- but for the moment, things are relatively okay.

This is due in no small part to you guys, I hope you know! I'm learning more and more about how therapy should work, and about what I should and shouldn't expect, and what I need to expect of myself.

Jeez, I'm running out of time-- I'm at work! I just wanted to let you know that this is, at least for the moment, all worked out.:hippy:

 

[Jazzey]

:woohoo: I'm so happy for you Charity - it all sounds great! :goodjob:

 

[David Baxter PhD]

Excellent. :2thumbs: