Hello everyone,
I`ve just come out of a two year relationship with a woman who i thought was the one of my dreams...i`m not coping well at all,i used to get gut feelings that she was cheating on me with a man i knew,i didn`t like him much.Things got so bad and i was constantly told i was paranoid and that my gut feelings were totally wrong,that i was so paranoid that it was debillitating to the relationship,i would then feel extreme guilt but still continued to get these horrid feelings,i would try and rationalise with myself and try to sort through these feelings but they kept coming back.After time we went our seperate ways,i felt terrible for all the accusations and the way i treated her,i went through hell,i took a long hard look at myself "i`m paranoid,jelous,obsessive ect ect" it really took it out of me to know that i destroyed something i cared so much just because of ny gut feelings that i couldn`t repress.
A short time after i found out through a very reliable source that my gut feelings were true,the things i was told i could not escape from,i tried to find logical explanations that this could not be the case that it was i that ruined everything,that i was the culprit.But no,what i was told was the cold hard truth and that others knew.Now they are both carrying on,he is still in a relationship...I`m devistated by this news,i feel stupid and used,i was no angel i know that but i didn`t deserve that,i felt i was out of my mind being told i was paranoid and all,anyone would think that i would feel better to know that i`m not,it doesn`t.Terrible things have happend and i feel i should hate her...i wan`t to but i don`t,when i see her out i have many emotions surge through me,and there is still love.I know it`s over but my mind keeps racing,what can i do? has anyone any comments or advise?
I`ve just come out of a two year relationship with a woman who i thought was the one of my dreams...i`m not coping well at all,i used to get gut feelings that she was cheating on me with a man i knew,i didn`t like him much.Things got so bad and i was constantly told i was paranoid and that my gut feelings were totally wrong,that i was so paranoid that it was debillitating to the relationship,i would then feel extreme guilt but still continued to get these horrid feelings,i would try and rationalise with myself and try to sort through these feelings but they kept coming back.After time we went our seperate ways,i felt terrible for all the accusations and the way i treated her,i went through hell,i took a long hard look at myself "i`m paranoid,jelous,obsessive ect ect" it really took it out of me to know that i destroyed something i cared so much just because of ny gut feelings that i couldn`t repress.
A short time after i found out through a very reliable source that my gut feelings were true,the things i was told i could not escape from,i tried to find logical explanations that this could not be the case that it was i that ruined everything,that i was the culprit.But no,what i was told was the cold hard truth and that others knew.Now they are both carrying on,he is still in a relationship...I`m devistated by this news,i feel stupid and used,i was no angel i know that but i didn`t deserve that,i felt i was out of my mind being told i was paranoid and all,anyone would think that i would feel better to know that i`m not,it doesn`t.Terrible things have happend and i feel i should hate her...i wan`t to but i don`t,when i see her out i have many emotions surge through me,and there is still love.I know it`s over but my mind keeps racing,what can i do? has anyone any comments or advise?