- Feb 11, 2006
i just can't stop crying...this past week or so has been another hard time-more freakin depression. Yesterday I started to come out of it. Tonight I was suppose to be Rabbi's guest at the Community Seder so I got all dressed up...drove there,,, only to find out my name wasn't even on the list...i wanted to die!!!!!!!!!!!! all the people were pushing towards the front to see where they were sitting and there i was just standing there seeing my name was missing. I couldn't get out of the building fast enough-the tears started and I could barely drive home cause i was crying so much. now i'm back where I was just days ago-crying and overwhelmed. I can't begin to tell you how sick and tired i am with my self....why do i have to be like this??? why can't i be like everyone else with normal problems?? i feel like i'm watching my mind go and theres nothing i can do but watch. does anybody have any ideas on what i should do now?