Haven't been here in a while.
Not sure where to post this kind of stuff as other places I don't think my anonymity is as good as it is here.
I'm starting to have some frustration in my life (regarding finding a mate at least - my life is a mess at all times psychologically otherwise).
Lots of questions to ask. I am in my 40s now, been sober now for almost 3 years. Working full time.
Haven't had a relationship now for 5 years.
Been trying to stay sober and get medicated right for:
Anxiety
Depression
Social phobia(?)
I have issues around people - extreme fear of making eye contact, I avoid people (neighbors when they are outside, for example) and I pretty much creep eveyrone out at work. I keep sunglasses on inside buildings at all times.
I guess I am starting to come to the realization that I'm just too creepy to interact with the opposite sex? There was a new woman at work that I thought I might be attracted to but just the thought of even approaching her scares me. Is it possible I am gay? I don't know. It's never a question I wanted to seek.
I have been attracted to the opposite sex I believe going back to my teens, but maybe I just made myself believe that? I mean if I am too afraid to even interact with them, maybe I'm closeted gay?
I have had a relationship or two with women that were sexual, but in the 5 year relationship I drank heavily. The other one I was using liquor moderately. I think I used to ease the fear of being next to them. I am not sure.
I have always had social anxiety issues - phobia, as long as I can remember.
I don't know anymore. If I can't get a woman at this point coming up on 3 years sober, and now into my 40s, what the hell am I to do?
The other night I thought maybe I should just say the hell with it and get a half pint of vodka and maybe go to a club? If liquor is what it takes, and it's this late in the game, then I have to? Or maybe I'm gay?
Just so much. Too much.
I am seeing a therapist but I don't want to approach any of this garbage with him. Only seen him now a half dozen times.
What does anyone here think about any of this?
Not sure where to post this kind of stuff as other places I don't think my anonymity is as good as it is here.
I'm starting to have some frustration in my life (regarding finding a mate at least - my life is a mess at all times psychologically otherwise).
Lots of questions to ask. I am in my 40s now, been sober now for almost 3 years. Working full time.
Haven't had a relationship now for 5 years.
Been trying to stay sober and get medicated right for:
Anxiety
Depression
Social phobia(?)
I have issues around people - extreme fear of making eye contact, I avoid people (neighbors when they are outside, for example) and I pretty much creep eveyrone out at work. I keep sunglasses on inside buildings at all times.
I guess I am starting to come to the realization that I'm just too creepy to interact with the opposite sex? There was a new woman at work that I thought I might be attracted to but just the thought of even approaching her scares me. Is it possible I am gay? I don't know. It's never a question I wanted to seek.
I have been attracted to the opposite sex I believe going back to my teens, but maybe I just made myself believe that? I mean if I am too afraid to even interact with them, maybe I'm closeted gay?
I have had a relationship or two with women that were sexual, but in the 5 year relationship I drank heavily. The other one I was using liquor moderately. I think I used to ease the fear of being next to them. I am not sure.
I have always had social anxiety issues - phobia, as long as I can remember.
I don't know anymore. If I can't get a woman at this point coming up on 3 years sober, and now into my 40s, what the hell am I to do?
The other night I thought maybe I should just say the hell with it and get a half pint of vodka and maybe go to a club? If liquor is what it takes, and it's this late in the game, then I have to? Or maybe I'm gay?
Just so much. Too much.
I am seeing a therapist but I don't want to approach any of this garbage with him. Only seen him now a half dozen times.
What does anyone here think about any of this?