Hi all,
I'm glad I found this site & hope it helps & that I can help some of you in some way. I'm 26 & from the UK, very confused about what's going on with me lol. I've had Depression since I was 14, 12 years now. That's the youngest I can remember feeling this way. I got diagnosed, well started on meds in August 1999 by my GP. I still feel i've come no further since then. I was referred to the practice counsellor for counselling & had three sessions & gave up, it didn't feel like we clicked, felt weird. I had a two session assessment with the Community Mental Health Team when I was living down south, a Trainee Clinical Psychologist did it, but I never got to hear what she thought. I've had two assessments with Cognitive Behavioural Psychotherapists at Mental Health Units to see if CBT will help, my GP doesn't seem to think it will. Right now i'm with The Crisis Resolution & Home Treatment Service (Crisis Resolution Team) & they send a Psychiatric Nurse to see me, i've been with them for 2 weeks now & they were coming every day, now every other day & they have 24/7 phone support too. I got referred to them when I ended up at the PCT (Primary Care Trust) at the Hospital. I'd decided to OD & didn't wanna die really, but knew i'd do it, so I asked for help & if I hadn't got it i'd have given up. Anyhow, the Nurses feel I may have Borderline Personality Disorder, they did think maybe Bi Polar but my moods shift too quick. I'm seeing a Senior House Officer (Psychiatrist) for the first time on 28th April. Right now i'm on 150mg a day of Efexor XL, have been on them 8 months & while i'm better on them I still get serious depressed bouts. Have been on Celexa & Seroxat too in the past. I dunno what's wrong, if anything. Sometimes I even doubt I have Depression. I can feel normal, tho when I feel normal I'm not happy & can't get excited about things really. Then I get short depressed bouts which make me wanna die & are very scary, then sometimes i'm ok, go to work alot, exercise too much, feel positive. The Psychiatrist is my last hope, right now I feel normal & can't believe the severity of my downs. I'm so confused & just want help.
I'm glad I found this site & hope it helps & that I can help some of you in some way. I'm 26 & from the UK, very confused about what's going on with me lol. I've had Depression since I was 14, 12 years now. That's the youngest I can remember feeling this way. I got diagnosed, well started on meds in August 1999 by my GP. I still feel i've come no further since then. I was referred to the practice counsellor for counselling & had three sessions & gave up, it didn't feel like we clicked, felt weird. I had a two session assessment with the Community Mental Health Team when I was living down south, a Trainee Clinical Psychologist did it, but I never got to hear what she thought. I've had two assessments with Cognitive Behavioural Psychotherapists at Mental Health Units to see if CBT will help, my GP doesn't seem to think it will. Right now i'm with The Crisis Resolution & Home Treatment Service (Crisis Resolution Team) & they send a Psychiatric Nurse to see me, i've been with them for 2 weeks now & they were coming every day, now every other day & they have 24/7 phone support too. I got referred to them when I ended up at the PCT (Primary Care Trust) at the Hospital. I'd decided to OD & didn't wanna die really, but knew i'd do it, so I asked for help & if I hadn't got it i'd have given up. Anyhow, the Nurses feel I may have Borderline Personality Disorder, they did think maybe Bi Polar but my moods shift too quick. I'm seeing a Senior House Officer (Psychiatrist) for the first time on 28th April. Right now i'm on 150mg a day of Efexor XL, have been on them 8 months & while i'm better on them I still get serious depressed bouts. Have been on Celexa & Seroxat too in the past. I dunno what's wrong, if anything. Sometimes I even doubt I have Depression. I can feel normal, tho when I feel normal I'm not happy & can't get excited about things really. Then I get short depressed bouts which make me wanna die & are very scary, then sometimes i'm ok, go to work alot, exercise too much, feel positive. The Psychiatrist is my last hope, right now I feel normal & can't believe the severity of my downs. I'm so confused & just want help.
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