I harbor alot of anger and I just don't know how to handle it! I need to get past it and nothing seems to help. I'm feeling so alone and overwhelmed right now!
Where it stems from:
* ex Husand irritates my soul - he cheated on me but I didn't find out for sure until after everything was final; and it was with a friend
* he told me that he never really loved me and married me out of convenience - I now know that except for the fact that I have my children, those 17 years were wasted and miserable with me being the only one trying to work on it - now I know why
* I'm in a relationship that I shouldn't be in and it makes me angry because I'm doing exactly what angers me so much about my ex husband!!!!! What am I doing??? Saying that I love him and he loves me does not justify it but I can't seem to break free
* I am here alone because of my choices; meanwhile, ex husband and his girlfriend are off with my kids doing the things that I used to beg him to do with us
Miserable and lonely with seemingly nowhere to turn[/quote]