claireangie
Member
Im new to the forum, and I am amazed to read peoples experiences with OCD, I have to say that reading lots of the entries I feel like a fraud as I am lucky in the fact that my OCD doesnt take over my life...well not completely, although it is very irritating, and extremely time consuming!
....basically in a nut shell my main problem is writing lists for "getting everything ready for the next day" and I have to physically get everything ready for "the next day"this involves clothes being hung up work bag being ready, and there is a long list of how to get my work bag ready and although what needs to actually be in my bag never changes..getting it ready in my head takes forever, often hours at a time, and then the continual checking until "it clicks" in my head is so annoying and time consuming....but the relief when everything "clicks" is wonderful.
I have been a list maker, and checker of things for aslong as i can remember...when work is very stressful it is even worse, and in classic OCD fashion the reason for the continual checking is because I worry so much that by not checking sufficiently I may forget something that may result in me doing something wrong at work and harming someone because I forgot something, I am a qualified psychiatric nurse (ironic hey!) and often I am the only qualified nurse on a shift...so I spend so long thinking up the worse case scenario that could happen on a shift, and try to think what I would do to deal with this.
Sometimes I do wonder if I had a job with a lot less responsibility, would my ocd be better? I was still a compulsive checker before I was a nurse, and my boyfriend believes that I would "worry" whatever job i did, but sometimes I am just so tierd both mentally and physically of this constant need to check that I have to take meds...but I only do this when it is so unbearable.
So are there any other "checkers" out there? Who have to check things until they "click" in your head? I would like to hear other peoples experiences, as I have never spoken to anyone else with this disorder.
....basically in a nut shell my main problem is writing lists for "getting everything ready for the next day" and I have to physically get everything ready for "the next day"this involves clothes being hung up work bag being ready, and there is a long list of how to get my work bag ready and although what needs to actually be in my bag never changes..getting it ready in my head takes forever, often hours at a time, and then the continual checking until "it clicks" in my head is so annoying and time consuming....but the relief when everything "clicks" is wonderful.
I have been a list maker, and checker of things for aslong as i can remember...when work is very stressful it is even worse, and in classic OCD fashion the reason for the continual checking is because I worry so much that by not checking sufficiently I may forget something that may result in me doing something wrong at work and harming someone because I forgot something, I am a qualified psychiatric nurse (ironic hey!) and often I am the only qualified nurse on a shift...so I spend so long thinking up the worse case scenario that could happen on a shift, and try to think what I would do to deal with this.
Sometimes I do wonder if I had a job with a lot less responsibility, would my ocd be better? I was still a compulsive checker before I was a nurse, and my boyfriend believes that I would "worry" whatever job i did, but sometimes I am just so tierd both mentally and physically of this constant need to check that I have to take meds...but I only do this when it is so unbearable.
So are there any other "checkers" out there? Who have to check things until they "click" in your head? I would like to hear other peoples experiences, as I have never spoken to anyone else with this disorder.