I logged onto your forum looking for information on social anxiety. I know you are presenting shyness as positive but it doesn?t feel positive to me. I feel so hopeless, everything social makes me anxious. Parties, work functions, speaking in public, going to Doctors, dating, returning items to a store, confronting people, having to leave my office at work, taking coffee breaks with people, being around groups of people. I went to see a psychologist and we worked on exposure to some things and I did what he asked me to and he said I was ready to terminate therapy because I made good progress with my assignments. The thing is, although I did the required assignments, I don?t feel any different, I only did the assignments so I wouldn?t be criticized or embarrassed for not having done them. I feel no diferent and this after six months of working on this problem in bi monthly sessions. One of my assignments was to go for a coffee break and I did that but I have not done it again since.
I physically can not go to a doctor about this, I know its dumb to care what people. I cant go back to the therapist, he will be angry or impatient with me for pretending to make progress. I don?t know why I did it, I just didn?t want to look bad. There is no way I could join a group like it talks about in some of the threads, I could never do that.
I am bored, I am lonely and I am fed up with myself but I feel too pathetic to overcome this problem. I hate making a fool of myself all the time, I always say the wrong thing, people laugh at me. Tonight I actually went out and I said something stupid and people were laughing at me. I hate that feeling.
Sorry to sound so negaative, I am Just venting and I am mad ar myself, I guess, there is no one to talk to and its my own fault..![Frown :( :(](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
I physically can not go to a doctor about this, I know its dumb to care what people. I cant go back to the therapist, he will be angry or impatient with me for pretending to make progress. I don?t know why I did it, I just didn?t want to look bad. There is no way I could join a group like it talks about in some of the threads, I could never do that.
I am bored, I am lonely and I am fed up with myself but I feel too pathetic to overcome this problem. I hate making a fool of myself all the time, I always say the wrong thing, people laugh at me. Tonight I actually went out and I said something stupid and people were laughing at me. I hate that feeling.
Sorry to sound so negaative, I am Just venting and I am mad ar myself, I guess, there is no one to talk to and its my own fault..