I'm not even sure if this is a problem..it doesn't bother me...much, but I'm just curious whether this is a psychological disorder of any sort.
To start, I constantly talk to myself. Whenever I'm alone I'll talk or mutter things aloud. I think that this is normal though. And, also normal I think, I tend to make up fantasies in my mind.
What isn't normal is that these I sometimes stay in bed for an extra few hours in the morning and go to sleep much later that I should to fantasize about another life in another world. I incorporate things from my day and life into them, mostly from movies and books, but I'm always the main character and I'm usually a very independant, dominant figure. Its as if I'm living the life/lives that I would want to live in real life but in my mind.
So, when I'm alone at home I pace around downstairs, thinking of the fake life that I'm leading in a fantasy. Whatever I feel like in the fantasy, I make the expression on my face in real life, unintensionally, and I actually feel the emotions myself, as if they were real. I can feel my heartbeat speed up and slow down with that of my fictional self's.
And I'm not sad about my life or anything. I'm happy and content. I'm just 18 and in college now. An interesting point is that I don't have much of a social life. I belong to a small group of friends, but I usually stay home and be alone. If I feel the need to socialize, I can actually satisfy it by fantasizing rather than going out in real life. I almost find it better to fantasize a social life, than really have one. In my fantasy, everything can go the way that I want it, and so I get whatever it is that I want from social interaction. But in real life, I would go out with friends, and they'd talk about something I dont care about or complain about something or something else. There are so many uncontrolled varibles in real life, but in my mind, I hold all the cards.
I know that last paragraph probably sounds a bit psycho. And, yes, I can distinguish between reality and what's in my mind. Most of the time anyway, sometimes I forget whether I thought something up or whether it really happened.
In writing this out, it actually doesn't sound like I have a problem rather than an overactive imagination or something, but any feedback, comments, or anything would be really appreciated. Thanks
To start, I constantly talk to myself. Whenever I'm alone I'll talk or mutter things aloud. I think that this is normal though. And, also normal I think, I tend to make up fantasies in my mind.
What isn't normal is that these I sometimes stay in bed for an extra few hours in the morning and go to sleep much later that I should to fantasize about another life in another world. I incorporate things from my day and life into them, mostly from movies and books, but I'm always the main character and I'm usually a very independant, dominant figure. Its as if I'm living the life/lives that I would want to live in real life but in my mind.
So, when I'm alone at home I pace around downstairs, thinking of the fake life that I'm leading in a fantasy. Whatever I feel like in the fantasy, I make the expression on my face in real life, unintensionally, and I actually feel the emotions myself, as if they were real. I can feel my heartbeat speed up and slow down with that of my fictional self's.
And I'm not sad about my life or anything. I'm happy and content. I'm just 18 and in college now. An interesting point is that I don't have much of a social life. I belong to a small group of friends, but I usually stay home and be alone. If I feel the need to socialize, I can actually satisfy it by fantasizing rather than going out in real life. I almost find it better to fantasize a social life, than really have one. In my fantasy, everything can go the way that I want it, and so I get whatever it is that I want from social interaction. But in real life, I would go out with friends, and they'd talk about something I dont care about or complain about something or something else. There are so many uncontrolled varibles in real life, but in my mind, I hold all the cards.
I know that last paragraph probably sounds a bit psycho. And, yes, I can distinguish between reality and what's in my mind. Most of the time anyway, sometimes I forget whether I thought something up or whether it really happened.
In writing this out, it actually doesn't sound like I have a problem rather than an overactive imagination or something, but any feedback, comments, or anything would be really appreciated. Thanks
