ricenbeans
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Please bear with me as this will be a little lengthy.
I am just now realizing that my mother is a Narcissist. I am 32 years old, married, and live with her in her house.
Our relationship was great until my teenage years where I began to think on my own. She was caring, nurturing, and loving and then without notice she was gone. I became co-dependant on my mother as I went through a lot of abuse as a child and she was the ONLY one there for me. In the past year I started seeking counseling for my anxiety and depression. She claims I should get counseling to fix myself as I am what is broken in our relationship.
I understand upon looking back at my mother's life that she endured a lot of abuse growing up and she was basically the mother to her mom. She was given away at a young age in marriage to a Narcissist who was a highly abusive man, my father. I witnessed her throughout the years "toughen up" and turn from a fragile ball of nerves to the "indestructible" woman she is today. Honestly, I pity her.
Upon getting married, I convinced my husband to move in to my mothers home (where I was living at the time) as I didn't want to abandon her and my minor sibling as I was the "man" of the house for many many years. I asked and he went along with it for me. Seven years later, we are still in the same living conditions (I know, I know).
In the last 4 years, my mother has gotten a lot worse against me personally and has made the mistake of treating my husband in the same fashion. He has lost all patience and I understand him. He wanted to move out years ago but feared I wouldn't follow him. At this point, I am willing to move out. Coincidentally, while we were planning how to break the news we got pregnant for the first time :lol:. Husband is elated!
I live for my family. I volunteer 50+ hours a week at my mother's business and assist her 3xs a week at her charity program.
I am a pretty honest person and wanted to blurt everything out at the same time. My husband asked me not to as to not taint good baby news with potentially bad moving out news. We agreed to share baby news after our first ultrasound, which hasn't happened yet. Ok, so we had the moving out conversation. We thought we spoke well and were considerate with giving three months anticipation. She was very irrate and turned the conversation into how this would effect her negatively. She demanded that we wait until she sell the house for us to move as she claims she wont be able to maintain the home without our financial assistance. I know that between her and my now adult sibling they make more than enough to live there and do well. It was ironic as she always claims we do not help enough financially and at the end of the conversation suggested that if money is the issue for us to live there without giving anything financially. I don't get it. There has been talk about selling the house on and off for the past 4 years yet she has never made a real effort to sell it. She even asked me what will I do if the house never sells... I was dumb founded by that question and didn't answer. WHAT?!? It's her house, she has owned for over 15 years. She even went on to accuse us of things we aren't even doing. Some things had me thinking my sibling has been used as a hacker of my privacy and then truths have been taken and twisted. When I would try to reply she speaks over my voice to silence me. I could go on...
Severing this relationship, as I have read others on here do, is something that at this point I am not willing to consider.
After this blow up, when my sibling is not around my mother throws a few verbal punches every now and then between her silent treatment. With my sibling present, they are acting nicer to me than they EVER have. At this point I know I want to move.
I am excitedly anticipating my first ultrasound and at the same time dreading even having this conversation with them. I am even considering telling them in front of others to force my mother's response to be positive as I know she will play the nice mom role in that type of a setting. I know that she wont take this news that well because my priorities will shift away from her.
I don't know how to speak to her, how to deal with this....
ANY advice would be GREATLY appreciated.
I am just now realizing that my mother is a Narcissist. I am 32 years old, married, and live with her in her house.
Our relationship was great until my teenage years where I began to think on my own. She was caring, nurturing, and loving and then without notice she was gone. I became co-dependant on my mother as I went through a lot of abuse as a child and she was the ONLY one there for me. In the past year I started seeking counseling for my anxiety and depression. She claims I should get counseling to fix myself as I am what is broken in our relationship.
I understand upon looking back at my mother's life that she endured a lot of abuse growing up and she was basically the mother to her mom. She was given away at a young age in marriage to a Narcissist who was a highly abusive man, my father. I witnessed her throughout the years "toughen up" and turn from a fragile ball of nerves to the "indestructible" woman she is today. Honestly, I pity her.
Upon getting married, I convinced my husband to move in to my mothers home (where I was living at the time) as I didn't want to abandon her and my minor sibling as I was the "man" of the house for many many years. I asked and he went along with it for me. Seven years later, we are still in the same living conditions (I know, I know).
In the last 4 years, my mother has gotten a lot worse against me personally and has made the mistake of treating my husband in the same fashion. He has lost all patience and I understand him. He wanted to move out years ago but feared I wouldn't follow him. At this point, I am willing to move out. Coincidentally, while we were planning how to break the news we got pregnant for the first time :lol:. Husband is elated!
I live for my family. I volunteer 50+ hours a week at my mother's business and assist her 3xs a week at her charity program.
I am a pretty honest person and wanted to blurt everything out at the same time. My husband asked me not to as to not taint good baby news with potentially bad moving out news. We agreed to share baby news after our first ultrasound, which hasn't happened yet. Ok, so we had the moving out conversation. We thought we spoke well and were considerate with giving three months anticipation. She was very irrate and turned the conversation into how this would effect her negatively. She demanded that we wait until she sell the house for us to move as she claims she wont be able to maintain the home without our financial assistance. I know that between her and my now adult sibling they make more than enough to live there and do well. It was ironic as she always claims we do not help enough financially and at the end of the conversation suggested that if money is the issue for us to live there without giving anything financially. I don't get it. There has been talk about selling the house on and off for the past 4 years yet she has never made a real effort to sell it. She even asked me what will I do if the house never sells... I was dumb founded by that question and didn't answer. WHAT?!? It's her house, she has owned for over 15 years. She even went on to accuse us of things we aren't even doing. Some things had me thinking my sibling has been used as a hacker of my privacy and then truths have been taken and twisted. When I would try to reply she speaks over my voice to silence me. I could go on...
Severing this relationship, as I have read others on here do, is something that at this point I am not willing to consider.
After this blow up, when my sibling is not around my mother throws a few verbal punches every now and then between her silent treatment. With my sibling present, they are acting nicer to me than they EVER have. At this point I know I want to move.
I am excitedly anticipating my first ultrasound and at the same time dreading even having this conversation with them. I am even considering telling them in front of others to force my mother's response to be positive as I know she will play the nice mom role in that type of a setting. I know that she wont take this news that well because my priorities will shift away from her.
I don't know how to speak to her, how to deal with this....
ANY advice would be GREATLY appreciated.