iam*who*iam
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i'm like all over the place on this forum..i feel too crazy...bad word..but whatever.
i'm trying to get back on track with my eating.
i am not having thoughts to lose weight, but the same anxiety i had before i went inpatient, is kind of back.
i also cannot go back inpatient, since that was a once in a lifetime chance kind of thing.
i was LUCKY to have had that chance.
and so it cannot happen..i cannot slip backwards.
it will kill me..
i'm getting into a once a week support group...it's the only eating disorder support in my city.
i'm so so scared of getting sick again..
when i was really sick and having physical symptoms, the hospital didn't find things wrong.
i was so mentally and physically unstable, and they basically said they couldn't help me.
i can't get there again...
so..i don't know what to do..
try to take it one day at a time...remind myself i'm still okay enough..i can stop this..
i just am trying to really believe it...
can't slip...i'm too young...
i think anxiety has something to do with the eating disorder..and stress..well, yeah, they are all linked...
i'm trying to get back on track with my eating.
i am not having thoughts to lose weight, but the same anxiety i had before i went inpatient, is kind of back.
i also cannot go back inpatient, since that was a once in a lifetime chance kind of thing.
i was LUCKY to have had that chance.
and so it cannot happen..i cannot slip backwards.
it will kill me..
i'm getting into a once a week support group...it's the only eating disorder support in my city.
i'm so so scared of getting sick again..
when i was really sick and having physical symptoms, the hospital didn't find things wrong.
i was so mentally and physically unstable, and they basically said they couldn't help me.
i can't get there again...
so..i don't know what to do..
try to take it one day at a time...remind myself i'm still okay enough..i can stop this..
i just am trying to really believe it...
can't slip...i'm too young...
i think anxiety has something to do with the eating disorder..and stress..well, yeah, they are all linked...