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i'm like all over the place on this forum..i feel too crazy...bad word..but whatever.

i'm trying to get back on track with my eating.

i am not having thoughts to lose weight, but the same anxiety i had before i went inpatient, is kind of back.

i also cannot go back inpatient, since that was a once in a lifetime chance kind of thing.

i was LUCKY to have had that chance.

and so it cannot happen..i cannot slip backwards.

it will kill me..

i'm getting into a once a week support's the only eating disorder support in my city.

i'm so so scared of getting sick again..

when i was really sick and having physical symptoms, the hospital didn't find things wrong.

i was so mentally and physically unstable, and they basically said they couldn't help me.

i can't get there again...

so..i don't know what to do..

try to take it one day at a time...remind myself i'm still okay enough..i can stop this..

i just am trying to really believe it...

can't slip...i'm too young...

i think anxiety has something to do with the eating disorder..and stress..well, yeah, they are all linked...


i see a psychiatrist for meds and i guess...therapy..and for the eating disorder, i'm starting the once a week support group..and for the anxiety, i just take meds and deal with it.

i'm not sure if a psychologist would be a better idea for dealing with the anxiety and eating issues..or what.

i know psychiatrists deal with the mental stuff..mine is doing some kind of mirroring with me..i'm not quite sure what it's called.

if i talk about something, she'll say it back to me how she interprets it, which is normally accurate...and in doing that, it's supposed to i think...make things make more sense to me..

the eating disorder is the tricky thing though, because there is no proper help in my city or the province for that matter.


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I think that just going through that program and then going to the support group is a great step. :D You are working so hard Iam and as I had a reminder from my own therapist yesterday, this takes time. So stay gentle with yourself because you really are doing great. :hug::hug:

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