AmZ
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Thanks Dr Baxter.
I don't know. I don't mean to be so frustrating. I think I won't go to work but will stay in bed as I've only slept an hour here and there.
Then I'm fooling myself again that I'll be ok and just see how the day goes. I don't know. It's very confusing. I feel ok. I know I've had bad days but I still don't know if it warrants going back to that hospital.
Sorry for being so stubborn and difficult.
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Looks like my move is going to happen today.
I didn't go to work this morning.
Just walked down to the other building to talk with the manager of the program and she's not in yet. Will be in about 1pm so I'll go back then.
I know that she's going to say that I should go to the hospital. She's already said that she and the staff can't worry about me 24/7 and they can't offer me 24/7 support.
As soon as I tell her what's on my mind (without her even knowing about the fact that I self-harmed), it's going to be enough for her to say that I should go back to the hospital.
I self-harmed again. {detail removed}
All that's on my mind is to not go to the hospital and {detail removed}. I can't carry on like this.
I constantly want to self-harm. Even thinking about being in the closed ward and what I could possibly do. Very limited though so think it'll be OK.
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I'm on the way to the hospital. A care worker is taking me in her car. Wish me luck :/
I'm saving my life basically. I was planning on doing something tonight.
I don't know. I don't mean to be so frustrating. I think I won't go to work but will stay in bed as I've only slept an hour here and there.
Then I'm fooling myself again that I'll be ok and just see how the day goes. I don't know. It's very confusing. I feel ok. I know I've had bad days but I still don't know if it warrants going back to that hospital.
Sorry for being so stubborn and difficult.
---------- Post Merged at 12:04 PM ---------- Previous Post was at 05:57 AM ----------
Looks like my move is going to happen today.
I didn't go to work this morning.
Just walked down to the other building to talk with the manager of the program and she's not in yet. Will be in about 1pm so I'll go back then.
I know that she's going to say that I should go to the hospital. She's already said that she and the staff can't worry about me 24/7 and they can't offer me 24/7 support.
As soon as I tell her what's on my mind (without her even knowing about the fact that I self-harmed), it's going to be enough for her to say that I should go back to the hospital.
I self-harmed again. {detail removed}
All that's on my mind is to not go to the hospital and {detail removed}. I can't carry on like this.
I constantly want to self-harm. Even thinking about being in the closed ward and what I could possibly do. Very limited though so think it'll be OK.
---------- Post Merged at 02:08 PM ---------- Previous Post was at 05:57 AM ----------
I'm on the way to the hospital. A care worker is taking me in her car. Wish me luck :/
I'm saving my life basically. I was planning on doing something tonight.
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