BluMac81
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I'm just wondering if this is just an isolated incident or there are others like me who experiened this.
Before my main problem was anxiety/panic disorder. Yes nearly every single time I had anxiety or panic attacks, the depression would run parallel right along with it.
Now after moving and new docs (VA), I am perscribed Xanax to take 3 times daily and once at night for sleep. I actually am already developing a tolerance to it and usually tend to take 3mg (3 pills) xanax before social events, but when I do I am essentially cured of all social anxiety and I feel like a normal person. But that's just when I'm out....
When I'm home... struggling to accomplish all the things on my to-do list, thats when depression hits. Doesn't even need a trigger anymore, it is getting worse and worse since I started on the Xanax. Now keep in mind Xanax, a benzodiazapine is a short-acting anti-anxiety drug, shouldnt have long-term effects. But still. My depression is worsening from like 1 episode a month to twice or more per week, usually paralyzing me in a crying fit until i self-harm or take a good pill cocktail prior to sleep (4mg xanax, 15mg temazapam, 20mg ambien).
And yes I'm trying to combat the depression the right way. When I feel depressed I immediately try something cardio-wise to do, tennis, basketball, biking, jogging, etc. Exercise DOES help, but only momentarily, depression comes right back. I am currently seeing a VA psychiatrist (he does nothing but throw pills at me, gave me 360 1mg pills of xanax for god sakes), and I am TRYING to see the VA psycologist, but she keeps cancelling on me and after she cancels its another 1 month wait to see her. Another forgotten veteran am I? Luckily, though I think of suicide on a daily basis (just knowing this life will end at some point is a relief), I will NEVER do it because it would hurt the few people in my life who I love so much (my two sisters and my mother mostly).
Kinda funny, today taking my MAT106 Intermediate Algebra class, had a homework assignment that gave a formula for life expectancy of a man. Says my life expenacy according to that formula is 70. Which means 44 more years in this god-forsaken life for me.
ANYWAY sorry to ramble on (as I usually do), I mainly wanted to know if the excessive use of xanax (alprazolam) can lead to great bouts of depression.
Now don't get me wrong, I (sort of) use it as perscribed. He says take 3 during the day and 1 at night. I only do the 3 (or 4) xanax pill pop when I'm about to go out and do something really social. Otherwise, if i'm sitting at home and pop some xanax, it'll just make me really really sleepy, and even more depressed, so I avoid that.
Before my main problem was anxiety/panic disorder. Yes nearly every single time I had anxiety or panic attacks, the depression would run parallel right along with it.
Now after moving and new docs (VA), I am perscribed Xanax to take 3 times daily and once at night for sleep. I actually am already developing a tolerance to it and usually tend to take 3mg (3 pills) xanax before social events, but when I do I am essentially cured of all social anxiety and I feel like a normal person. But that's just when I'm out....
When I'm home... struggling to accomplish all the things on my to-do list, thats when depression hits. Doesn't even need a trigger anymore, it is getting worse and worse since I started on the Xanax. Now keep in mind Xanax, a benzodiazapine is a short-acting anti-anxiety drug, shouldnt have long-term effects. But still. My depression is worsening from like 1 episode a month to twice or more per week, usually paralyzing me in a crying fit until i self-harm or take a good pill cocktail prior to sleep (4mg xanax, 15mg temazapam, 20mg ambien).
And yes I'm trying to combat the depression the right way. When I feel depressed I immediately try something cardio-wise to do, tennis, basketball, biking, jogging, etc. Exercise DOES help, but only momentarily, depression comes right back. I am currently seeing a VA psychiatrist (he does nothing but throw pills at me, gave me 360 1mg pills of xanax for god sakes), and I am TRYING to see the VA psycologist, but she keeps cancelling on me and after she cancels its another 1 month wait to see her. Another forgotten veteran am I? Luckily, though I think of suicide on a daily basis (just knowing this life will end at some point is a relief), I will NEVER do it because it would hurt the few people in my life who I love so much (my two sisters and my mother mostly).
Kinda funny, today taking my MAT106 Intermediate Algebra class, had a homework assignment that gave a formula for life expectancy of a man. Says my life expenacy according to that formula is 70. Which means 44 more years in this god-forsaken life for me.
ANYWAY sorry to ramble on (as I usually do), I mainly wanted to know if the excessive use of xanax (alprazolam) can lead to great bouts of depression.
Now don't get me wrong, I (sort of) use it as perscribed. He says take 3 during the day and 1 at night. I only do the 3 (or 4) xanax pill pop when I'm about to go out and do something really social. Otherwise, if i'm sitting at home and pop some xanax, it'll just make me really really sleepy, and even more depressed, so I avoid that.