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Well I am GLAD you woke up and I hope you can find the help you need.

 

[Retired]

have just woken up!! unfortunately!!

No Reeper, fortunately you are alive!! You have been given the precious gift of life and it is far too valuable to be squandered.

If you have not already done so, dispose of the materials and instruments you used in your suicide plan, now.

The next thing you need to do is to contact your doctor or therapist to let him/her know you made a suicide attempt.

This is a critical time for you to make some decisions about your life. If you want to get out of this debilitating situation you're in, then you will have to begin doing some hard work.

I believe you joined a support group at one time, did you not? How's that going?

There are important reasons to live, and you need to make it your job to discover those reasons, make the changes in your life so that you can regain control over your life.

Perhaps a first step might be to change your username to something other that Reeper, which in itself is just plain negative and identifies you with death.

If you would like to make that important first step, send a private message to me or to Dr. Baxter, and we would be pleased to make the change for you.

Associate yourself with life, with beauty and hope for the future.

You deserve better than what you are offering yourself right now.

There are people here who care about you and have been worried for your welfare. If there is nothing else in your life, think about those wonderful people you have met here on Psychlinks, who care about you....and make them your reason for living.

Will you promise to keep yourself safe until you can contact your doctor or therapist?

 

[Lonewolf]

I don't really know what to say to you all!! I wish I shared your enthusiasm for the future, cos I honestly don't and haven't done for a very long time!! I understand that most of you see life as a gift and to many people it truly is, but for me-it is a constant struggle, even breathing is an effort at times! I apologise for being so negative, but I didn't ask to be born and sincerely wish I wasn't!! I am here although I wouldn't wish my horrid existence onto anyone else!! I know that some people think that life is what you make it, so did I ask to be abused and raped for most of the life Ive endured so far!! The images that flash through my head almost all of the time are horrific! Im alone with them, in my head! If I was a wounded animal that was too damaged to have any sort of life, wouldn't you rather it be put to sleep, than have it suffer!!!
I hope that someone understands!!

 

[forgetmenot]

OK we do understnad ok but you are able to get treatment therapy to make the thoughts images go away you can get well again you can heal but it takes work ok from you it takes time You can get well you are not too damaged hun You can regain the power back that was taken from you please know that

 

[GDPR]

I hope that someone understands!!

I totally understand.

But honestly,things CAN get better.I'm not just saying that to make you feel better either.Forgetmenot is right,it does take both time and work.

I'm not going to lie,I don't feel 100% better,even after over 3 years of therapy,but I am starting to have more and more good days.My therapist told me just the other day that after that much abuse,it takes a long time to heal.

The images that flash through my mind are horrific too.I wish they would stop,but I'm not sure they ever will.All we can do is learn how to manage them,learn how to live despite them.

I really am glad you're okay and you're still here. And I hope someday you will feel the same.

 

[Lonewolf]

im signing out now, ive lost all of my words!! Thankyou for listening!!

 

[forgetmenot]

i lose my words too hun just remember we are here ok so no need to fight this alone hugs to you

 

[Retired]

If I was a wounded animal that was too damaged to have any sort of life, wouldn't you rather it be put to sleep, than have it suffer!!!

I would respectfully submit your analogy is faulty. Your example conjures up thoughts of an animal in some form of physical distress, where, in the context of an animal, not a person, euthanasia might be the humane option.

In your case, we are talking about mental illness issues that are generally treatable, and long gone are the days when people with mental illness were warehoused in sanatoriums or left to die...no, we've come a long way from there, but you need to make the choice, albeit a very difficult choice, given the tragedy of your history, to get the help you need to allow you to make changes in your life.

I hope that someone understands!!

Oh yes....I think just about everyone who has taken the time and effort to respond to you on Psychlinks understands, to some degree, the pain you have experienced. Perhaps not due to identical circumstances as your personal tragedies, but most of us have had to deal with some form of tragedy, disappointment, pain due to a variety of causes, some from illness, some from abuse, some from other forms of crime, some from illness or death of a loved one, perhaps from the suicide of a loved one....loss of home, loss of a career, loss of dignity..the list can go on and on.

The resilience of the human spirit is remarkable despite incredible odds and unimaginable tragedy.

Think of the people in various parts of the world who endured natural disasters like hurricanes, floods fires, tsunamis... to come back and rebuild their lives, their homes and their cities.

You can especially take inspiration from the people who endured, survived and prevailed following the worlds worst tragedy, the Holocaust. I have had the good fortune to have known scores of people who rebuilt their lives following the unimaginable tragedy, personal harm and loss as a result of the Holocaust.

My point is that, as despicable as the events were that damaged your life in the past, there is still hope for you, but you must take the needed steps to make those changes happen.

I believe you have taken some of those steps since you joined us here on Psychlinks, and you are to be commended for your effort.

Perhaps you experienced a setback, that led you to this current crisis; but setbacks are part of the healing and therapeutic process. We are not machines, but emotional beings who are affected by our thoughts and emotions as we make progress toward healing. There may be more setbacks in the future, but by learning from each setback, you will be strengthened to meet and overcome the next.

As I stated earlier, I would urge you to make a couple of simple changes in mindset to allow your thinking to start looking toward healing and toward the gift of life.

I, personally will no longer use your current username which I feel uneasy about speaking or writing, but will call you "R" which in my own mind will make me think of you as being "Revitalized".

Your current Psychlinks username identifies you with death, and I believe if you expect to modify your thinking about yourself you need to break away from associations with death and defeat. Change your name to something neutral or better still something positive and hopeful. By doing so, you might be surprised at its effect on you. People tend to become what they associate themselves with.

Secondly, remove that quote about lemons and refunds in your signature, and adopt something that might shine a hopeful light on your life.... I believe Hope is the Fuel of Life, because Hope is the Great Motivator.

I didn't ask to be born and sincerely wish I wasn't!!

None of us "asked to be born" but when we came into this world, we were given the gift of life, and with that gift came a responsibility to maintain that life to the best of our ability, to do the best we can with the resources we are given, and to not take anything for granted.

Most of us have experienced tragedy and sorrow, and with a lot of hard work, dedication and resilience we got through it, with the help of others, often medical professionals who provided us with the care and compassion we needed at the time.

I would urge you, R, to take responsibility for your personal gift of life you have been given, seek out the resources that can treat your emotional and psychological injuries, do the work required to manage your symptoms and look toward better days ahead.

The past is the past, and it is part of who you are....but you are alive today and you prevailed over the terrible things that happened to you. You had tragedy in your life, but the tragedy does not have to have you. You can make the choice to regain control over your thoughts and your feelings....and that, R, is your reason for living. With modified thinking, although the past may linger in your memory, it will take in less and less significance, because you can be in control of your thoughts, with the help of your therapist.

We're here to provide the support you might need during this process.

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I hope you will allow me us to call you something more meaningful than "R" when you are ready.