WhatTheGuy
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I have been having moments, more and more frequently, about fantasies where I am confronted in an unjust situation. My mind wanders, playing out the scenario in my mind. It usually puts me in a bad mood, or hyped up ready for a physical confrontation. Sometimes when I'm at home I'll find myself somewhat acting out the fight. (Never in public though, but sometimes I catch myself mumbling to myself, but rarely). In these confrontations are police, racist people, criminals, or jerks. Sometimes I'll be in the position of helping someone or defending someone.
I am a foreigner living in Japan with limited language ability, and run into this racism at times, so I feel it may have made it worse.
Generally I have noticed a slight increase in these negative thoughts and the behavior itself worries me greatly. I am trying to understand why my mind jumps to such thoughts of aggressive confrontation so frequently during the week, and I am hoping to calm myself and reduce it and my bad moods. What worries me the most of all is that I might act out on someone else who in my imagination is some sort of perpetrator of sorts, someone that I might just be sitting next to when my mind wanders off into "day dreaming" of sorts.
Generally I try to just get my mind on something else when I notice myself being negative or thinking of aggressive thoughts. I want to understand what is going on, and what might be triggering this. I don't feel it is normal.
Please, does anyone with similar experience know whats going on? How can I deal with this or understand it? Thank you...
I am a foreigner living in Japan with limited language ability, and run into this racism at times, so I feel it may have made it worse.
Generally I have noticed a slight increase in these negative thoughts and the behavior itself worries me greatly. I am trying to understand why my mind jumps to such thoughts of aggressive confrontation so frequently during the week, and I am hoping to calm myself and reduce it and my bad moods. What worries me the most of all is that I might act out on someone else who in my imagination is some sort of perpetrator of sorts, someone that I might just be sitting next to when my mind wanders off into "day dreaming" of sorts.
Generally I try to just get my mind on something else when I notice myself being negative or thinking of aggressive thoughts. I want to understand what is going on, and what might be triggering this. I don't feel it is normal.
Please, does anyone with similar experience know whats going on? How can I deal with this or understand it? Thank you...